legovanan
This is scary. I have absolutely NO homework. That's just WRONG.

Wow. I am such a Troy person. I don't quite know what to do with myself without homework. OMG I just quoted Elijah Wood... oy.. Hanna! I'm obsessed with that Hobbit!

LALLALALLALLALALALAA!!!

I wanna drive but it's raining outside and heaven knows what that would lead to!

LALLAAALAALAALALAA!

What does Elaine want for her birthday...
Other than the impossible, let's see.

First of all, I'd like to say that I prefer creative, ecletic gifts that you came up with yourself...
Not that anyone has to get me anything, of course.

These aren't in order of preference, unless noted.

1. Ashley has her Sixteen Candles ending. Elaine wants this. This is like.. ultimate brownie points here. Elaine wants a boy to do the whole "Sixteen going on seventeen" song from the Sound of Music. Yes, I want the whole moonlit serenade with Rolfe... well something like it. Going on one knee and singing the song is equivalent. You don't have to sing it well! I just want the song!! Go watch the scene and learn the song because i WILL duet with you.
2. Rent
3. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
4. Steven Gerrard: My Story
5. Michael Ball CDs, other than Centre Stage, Musicals, Stage and Screen
6. Liverpool FC memorabilia
7. pictures of England
8. "Hourglass" by Kate Rusby
9. "Little Lights" by Kate Rusby
10. TRISTAN AND ISOLDE! (i think ashley claims this)
11. the Lord of the Rings music book
12. the Wicked music book
13. the Histories of Middle Earth by JRR Tolkien (yes, shockingly i do NOT have them)
14. Steven Gerrard
15. Rent Soundtrack
16. Star Wars Episode III: the Revenge of the Sith
17. Sunset Boulevard Original Cast Recording CD
18. i don't know.. come up with something!

seriously, i really really like ecletic, original gifts that are meaningful. it's what i like to give other people. in hayley's case it involved a paper plate but STILL.
I want #1!!!! Liesl and Rolfe! Seriously, it's like the cheapest gift on the list! You just have to embarass yourself... Andy don't get any ideas.

That was weird.

Most definitely.
First of all, you have to open the window with your LEFT hand and the seat belt buckles in on the RIGHT side. That was most bizarre.

This definitely shows that I have to move to England, because being on the left hand side of a car just weirds me out.

Yes people, Elaine just drove a car for the first time in her life. Other than the ONE occurrence where I mistook the gas for the brake, I did pretty okay.

My dad drove us to a secluded parking lot behind Ralphs. There was nothing there but a tractor, and no I did not run into that either. At first, I just had to drive from one end to the other in a straight line. I was pretty okay with that, except I couldnt' really drive backwards in a straight line. Then we worked on turning. That was fun! Whee! but I was dizzy after like 10 times around. And then we worked on parking. Parking is hard. It's like coloring. Do I HAVE to stay in the lines? Actually, when it came to coloring I was one of those kids that freaked out when it was outside the lines. I'm still like that. It looks BETTER inside the lines. I couldn't back out of a parking space. My dad kept saying, "Alright if there was a car on either side of you, my insurance just went up." I amended that, but then it so happened that there actually could be another car BEHIND you too... Oyy.. how many directions to I have to worry about?
O yeah, and according to my dad you absolutely canNOT drive without REAL shoes on. EWWWW!!! My feet were like BURNING!

Yeah but that was a fun experience.

I'd forgotten how much I like Enya! Amarantine is such a nice album that I have neglected since I got it. It's very water-oriented this time around.

I hate it when everything and everyone, including your good common sense screams at you not to do something but all your emotions drive you towards it...

Stupid Elaine and her internal conflicts.

legovanan
So who got her permit?
I don't know...
Who DID get her permit?
Elaine got her permit!
Elaine missed SIX on the test though, which really sucked. Hehehe I didn't know you had to turn your wheels towards the curb when you're parked uphill or downhill or whatever the answer was.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAYLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhh SO STRESSED.
Tomorrow: AP COMP SCI WRITTEN TEST!!!!! *DIES*
Maybe a trig quiz after I failed that trig test today.
Spanish skit where ALL THREE GUYS IN MY GROUP DON'T KNOW THEIR LINES AND DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE DOING! *DIES AGAIN*
Finish in class essay on Mark Antony.. mine sucks REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW.

it gets WORSE.
Friday:
0: AP CS MC TEST!!!!!!!!! *DIES FOR THE LAST TIME*
2: Spanish vocab quiz
3: Grammar quiz in English
4: CHEMISTRY TEST!!! CHEMISTRY TEST!!! CHEMISTRY TEST!!!!!!
5: AP Euro test

omg i am going to DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe a SLOW, PAINFUL DEATH.

legovanan

I'm a weirdo! WHEE! I like being a weirdo.
This is one of those posts that really doesn't make any sense and I'm just posting to post.
Um... so, let's see what's going on in Elaine's world about 15 minutes since she first woke up.
OO I KNOW! THE FIVE SENSES!
I see: the computer monitor through my nerdy glasses that I have yet to wear to school as Yogin has reminded me. I also see chapstick standing on top of my mp3 player, which is affording me some difficulties lately. There's also the English literature book open to Julius Caesar. I don't like this scene... Too much Cassius and Brutus and no Mark Antony.
I hear: I knew I loved you by Savage Garden. Aww this is such a Kristina song. I think I like "Truly Madly Deeply" just a bit more because of the lyrics.
I feel: the keys of the keyboard, isn't that unexpected. wait, i amend that to i touch, as feeling and touching are completely different things. NOT in any dirty, perverted way.
Um.. what are the other senses?
I taste: I have yet to taste what my dad is making downstairs, which I think is one of my favorites actually. Um.. at the moment I taste my toothpaste, which is really gross. That is what I hate about my mother just going out and buying random stuff, finding out she has too many, and sticking it in my bathroom. BLECH it tastes bad, but I will not be a bourgeois pig and waste it. OO I could just give it to my dad...
Taste, touch, see, hear... what am I missing???
I smell: nothing actually. the smell of pai gu tang has yet to waft upstairs and permeate the air deliciously.

wow.. that was one useless post right there.
going shopping later for hayley's present!

alright if it was a bad poem, whatever. i just needed to get that out.

legovanan
Alright I am officially an emo child.

Guys, after reading this, don't go fill out a form sending me to a psychiatrist alright? I'm really not this depressed. It just comes out that way on here. Writing always heals my soul of its melancholia.

Five lined stanzas really don't work that well. Let me warn you.

I think I have a thing for glass lately in poetry.

Wow the title alone damns me as emo.

Bleed Alone

I sit beside you.
You turn to me.
I lose myself within you.
You whisper that you love me.
How can I not believe you?

The glass breaks between us.
The shards embed within.
Do you feel them cut you?
Can you bear the pain?
Or do I bleed alone?

I sit beside you.
You turn away.
Do you even see me?
Do you even care?
Or do I bleed alone?

legovanan
o yes before i forget, robin, andy, and i have officially established the dirty whores blog.

yes you heard me: the dirty whores.

ashley is also invited whenever she chooses to check her email. if you are interested in membership, contact me and the "board" will decide if you're dirty enough.

see links for the link.

legovanan
Alright so I'm back from Jessica's party.
It was fun.
My dad dragged me back at 9:30. Then, around 10:30, "WHY aren't you in bed yet?"
"why do i have to be in bed?"
"what time do you have to get up tomorrow?"
"uh.. never"
"wait.. don't you have school?"
"uh.. no"
"o REALLY? then i wouldn't have made you come back so early."
"OMG DAD DO YOU REALLY THINK I WOULD HAVE GONE TO A PARTY SUNDAY NIGHT IF WE HAD SCHOOL THE NEXT DAY."
"yes.. i didn't think you had self control. i know better."

ARGH.
But it was really fun seeing all those people. Ryan Agsalud, Nicole Haley, Reyes, Ben, Roshi, Jessica, CONNIE!!, Jo, Alex Chan, Jeff Miner, BD, Camron, Ashley, Richard, Kirsten, and other people that I'm either forgetting or don't really know that well.
Since we have a policy of what happened at the party stays at the party (right Camron?), I shall say only this, my ears will never be the same, particularly the right one.
But I was happy. I didn't feel totally awkward and alone, even if Roshi and Camron were incessantly and unnecessarily makin fun of me, but I'm used to that. I think everyone thinks I'm a total girly bad girl now. Hehe they should see me at school. I'm not sure if that's the only reason I fit in, showing the "party" side of Elaine. that is, if i even have a party side. alright not really but more so than usual lately. that JSA thing totally set me off.

so what should elaine do for her birthday?

legovanan
Keep me drowning in your love!

Anyways, I have now officially infected Elsa. She even had all her NOW CDs out and started singing Samantha Mumba. MUAHAHA!

Cuz every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Alright i'm REALLY GOING TO STOP NOW.

today was a pretty good day. good days=nothing went wrong, yet. Liverpool kicked Man Utd arse in the FA Cup! I slept till noon, went shopping, and did homework. Yes, elaine went shopping. How shocking. $12 for a shirt and jeans. Hooray for Jen-esque shopping techniques! heheh. Got Jessica a present for the party tomorrow night. I have to go scavenge for the parts of Hayley's present tomorrow. That'll be hard. It's interesting. If I don't know you too well, you'll probably get a gift card, money, or something else nice and whole and useful. If I know you really well and we're really close, you get weird combinations of stuff to remind you of all the jokes and good times together, like red socks and skittles, or monsters and cookies. So according to my mom, it's better to not be close with me if you want a good gift monetary wise. But HEY, I say the memories are worth more!

If i come on in an hour crying and pissed off, that's cuz we are going to do math problems in a bit.. How fun!

What movie can I rent that's romantic, dramatic, with a hot male lead, and will make me go, "awww...", squeal for joy, and then cry my eyes out at the end? I wanna see Tristan and Isolde for that purpose, but that's not out yet!!! Suggestions por favor!

legovanan
flipping hell. God I sound like an emo b*tch on here but o well.

My dad won't stop talking about AP computer science. He's calling one of his friends in Kansas who's a programmer and had me talk to her for half an hour. She didn't know how to answer my questions. Now we're on a worldwide hunt for a blooming tutor. I told him I'd just go and be a nerd at lunch at those CSUF things and that brings on the whole, "THEN WHY DIDN't YOU DO THAT LAST SEMESTER? I DON'T WANT YOUR FREAKIN PRIDE GETTING IN THE WAY! YOU need to learn how to ask for HELP!"
So now he's like, "We can go to UCLA and get a tutor."
I am not driving to UCLA every Saturday morning to go get help on freaking computer science. Now he wants a college student from Cal State Fullerton.
I know he's worried about me, but I really don't want to get into the whole AP CS thing.. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHY DIDN'T I MAKE THE BLOODY ORACLE LAST YEAR?!?
Then I went and read the chapter of statistics my dad told me to. Then I'm supposed to go to my mom's house. it's like 10:30, so my dad's like, "Eh.. it's too late. There's no point. Just stay here and study with me." So now I'm here. I love this house. This is MY house, but the problem is I never feel like I can relax here. I was talking on the phone with Ashley, which prompted my dad to drag me down for statistics problems because I was wasting my time. With all my homework in front of me, I feel like I should be doing it. I get yelled at for having music on because I'm supposed to be concentrating, but I can't tell my dad that I'm not actually working because then he'll assign work. I wonder if my dad's ever heard of a thing called burnout.
My dad just keeps saying, "It's really not that hard. If you understood the concept it'd be so easy. I don't believe computer science can be hard. You're just missing something. It has to be easy." How would he know?!!?!? I feel like a freakin imbecile..

I'm getting bombarded with letters from colleges. What's scary is that so far they're all tech schools, as CalTech was the first one to send me anything. CalTech. That's the SCARY SCHOOL. The future Nobel Prize winning kids go there. The people who are good at chemistry and physics. Not ME! I'm really honored and if I could get in I'd be shocked and astounded and totally flattered, but what?! So this prompts my dad to start worrying because if no liberal arts colleges are interested in me, it means I'm not going to college. His theory is that I'm not good enough for the tech schools, which I'm not, and I have no intention whatsoever of going to one because I would DIE, but if the liberal arts schools don't take me I'm totally screwed. This then prompted yelling at me for getting a lower score on the English PSAT than the math. That's really interesting because my dad was yelling at me the other day on how the math was WAY TOO LOW for me. What would that make my english scores?

I'm just ranting and raving about my dismal future right now.. yes I should be grateful for having a roof over my head and food to eat and a school to go to and not be dying in a mudslide in the Philippines. I am grateful, but gratitude is relative to its surroundings.

And you know what else is scary? If you wear a mask or put on an act for so long you don't remember how to take it off. I barely remember me and how I was before this whole debacle. I want to go back and I don't know how. I should just stop thinking.

I think the only reason why I sound so horrible on this blog is because I post at night and at night I get very pensive, which leads to depressing rants like this. That's probably why I write in the midst of the night as well..

Donald is funny. Talking to him about his 3 calculators right now. hehe

legovanan
Since I am utterly wasting my life away, I shall fill this out.

OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU KNOW (NOT JUST YOUR FRIENDS)

The one you can stand for the longest amount of time: Kathleen

Wears the funkiest socks: Melissa from basketball

The activist: me

The most boy (or girl) obsessed: ashley and me.

The horniest: robin

The one who you wouldn't care if they disappeared from the face of this earth: samantha in my spanish and euro class

The best musician: andy, hands down.

The overachiever: jesse yang, however you spell it.

The DIYer: (do it yourself-er) elsa

The worst taste in music: anyone who listens to techno

Needs a life: royston

You absolutely couldn't live without: kathleen, ashley, elsa, hayley, yogin, andy, robin, matthew, camron

The best singer: andy and elsa

The most expansive vocabulary: michael tamplin

Has the niftiest house: isaac probably.. just because he says "nifty" a lot and he has a basement

Has the prettiest handwriting: JRR Tolkien and at times: Elsa

Talks way too much: colleen and me

The one you truly worry about: ashley and camron

Never gets sick: hayley


EITHER/OR


Elvis or Madonna? neither

Green or red? oh... this is hard. RED for Liverpool, but green for Imladris, Ithilien, and the Shire.

Sci-fi thriller or trashy romance? trashy romance any day. sci fi scares me

Martial arts or yoga? yoga probably... GYMNASTICS

Lollipop or Hershey's Kiss? both

When you sleep, bedroom door open or closed? closed. i can't sleep with the door open, which is exactly opposite of when i was little because then i couldn't sleep with it closed.

Jacket or sweatshirt? when it's really cold, and by that i mean under 65 degrees Fahrenheit, sweatshirt. otherwise jacket.

Radio or CDs? CDs

Recliner chair or cushion on the floor? probably recliner chair

Bunk bed: top or bottom? top so i can flip around and make the bed squeak so the person on the bottom can't sleep. also top because ernest hemingway traumatized me in "Farewell to Arms". he was lying in an ambulance under a guy who was hemorraging and he bled to death on top of him... ewww

Handwriting or typing? homework: typing. handwriting is prettier and more personalized. depends on the occasion

Chicken Soup: book or food?: uh.. neither. i'll say book because it's a book.

Ballet or jazz? ballet definitely

legovanan
Well Kristina is officially ADDICTED and OBSESSED and INFATUATED with Twilight, especially Edward Cullen.
We were talking and this is what struck us about the evil circle. I don't think Jen would totally be head over heels in love with Edward simply because, she doesn't adore being the damsel in distress. heheh the differences between the triumvirate of the evil circle.
Kristina: Save me! I'm in distress even though I'm not! I'll pretend to be in distress if it means you'll save me! Just save me already!
Elaine: RAWR!!! I need to dominate while you save me.
Jen: STOP TRYING TO SAVE ME! I can take care of myself!
(sorry had to borrow your word Ashley.. couldn't think of anything else)

legovanan
Wow...

So this is what the relationship has come to.
The phone disconnects and neither of us bother to call back.
That's quite a change..
What a couple months can do is amazing.

Well if I weren't so insecure about him hating me I'd call back, but I don't want to be bothering.

Andy's like, "This is what you get from dating your close friend."
I don't get that. People tell you to date someone who you haven't known forever and aren't a close friend with. Who do you date then? The guy at Starbucks? Someone you don't really know? As Andy puts it, "someone not in your immediate circle of friends who you don't have to hang out with." Well if you go out, they kind of become part of your close circle of friends.

Oyy.. I don't know how this all works out.

It's amazing how difficult a simple thing like talking can become. I sit there and I want to talk to him more than anything else. I don't want to have to wrack my brains for something to say, finally come up with something, but then not say it because of how stupid it sounds in my head. He'll just stare at me like I'm crazy or have it bounce straight back at me. That transforms me into an arm-waving, jumping up and down, loud, obnoxious ditz because I can't just sit there like some people never saying anything, I have to do something and that's the only thing that will distract me from those thoughts. And then I'm just plain annoying.
Maybe I should just sit and shut it. I make up my mind to do that and then I just can't. It's just not in me. I can't sit in the corner and not talk. But half the time that's what I think they all want me to do, especially him.

And thus I sit and listen to the Backstreet Boys.
My heart did time in Siberia
was waiting for the lie to come true
Cuz it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too...

legovanan
Aww... although I appreciate the support, before everyone bites Yogin's head off, that last post was not altogether his fault. Technically. Directly. Thank you Kristina though! I feel the love. *hug*

Ashley is awesome! We spent the morning bus ride singing Backstreet Boys songs! Haha poor Matthew was scarred forever. We even got Emron to join in!!!!
Elaine & Ashley: Now let me show you the shape of my heart!!!!!!!!!
Emron joins in for like 3 words. EMBRACE YOUR MASCULINITY EMRON! EMBRACE IT!
Matthew stares at all of us.
Matthew: Alright I knew SHE was weird (as in me), but Ashley!!!

I think he really died when everyone was like, "OOO What song is it??" when they heard what we were listening to.

Walked to Starbucks with Andy today, where we spent half an hour talking with Ian and Rachel, his friends. Apparently, I was flirting with the Starbucks guy. JUST because I was HYPER does NOT mean I was FLIRTING. Alright so judge for yourself.
me: I'll have a Java Chip Frappachino.
guy: ohh sorry, we don't have those. we're out of chips.
me: oyy.. they never have any.
guy: what?
me: well last time i came here you guys were just out of fraps over all and now you don't have it again.
guy: no, we have fraps, we just don't have the chips.
me: argh.. alright andy you go first.
andy orders first.
me: alright.. so can i get the java chip frappachino WITHOUT the java chip?
guy: do you mean the mocha??
me: THAT! YES! I don't know your weird coffee terminology!
guy: Alright what size would you like?
me: Uh.. the small one? Why do you call the small one tall?
guy: Are you sure you don't want to make it ___ (whatever the large one is called)
me: a what?
guy: never mind (SEE! I WAS NOT FLIRTING! IF I WERE FLIRTING, I would have said, 'Only if you'll pay for it.' BUT NO I DID NOT AND I'M NOT THAT SLUTTY)
me: yea.. there's $3 on that card and i will find you a dime.
guy: you'll FIND me a dime? Where will you find it?
me: eesh! I'm looking! I'm looking!
guy: your time is running out... come on.. hurry up!
me: ahhh! *takes out nickel and pennies*
guy: still haven't found one...
me: OMG THERE IT IS! *finally finds a dime* here you are..
guy: alright, your name please?
me: elaine (SEE HE KNOWS MY NAME BUT I DON'T KNOW HIS)
andy: elaine, why is it that you always cause a commotion wherever you go?
me: i don't cause a commotion! *to the starbucks guy* do i cause a commotion?
guy just looks at me.
me: i'm gonna go now so i don't cause too much of a commotion.
guy: bye elaine...

YEAH.
I WAS NOT FLIRTING.

I have a new appreciation for this line by Edgar Alan Poe:
All we see or have seen
Is but a dream within a dream

Was it all just a dream? Have I finally woken up?
Or am I just in the midst of a nightmare and I will wake up someday?

legovanan
ARGH YOGIN WHY DO YOU HAVE TO RUIN A PERFECTLY HAPPY DAY??!?!

I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT.
I DON'T.
I WON'T.

WHY IS IT SO HARD?!? WHY?!?!!??!

I had it all buried deep inside and right when I think it's alright and I can keep the jealousy and the bitterness and the loneliness and the regret inside, YOU PROD IT OPEN. WIDE OPEN.

WHY CAN'T IT JUST BE OVER NOW?

I can't watch it. I can't take it. It's like drawing my blood out slowly and painfully, making me watch.

I move on and snap I'm back.

What did Shakespeare say about jealousy again? Something about that green envious monster. I won't let it get out of control. I won't let longing and regret take over.

Argh I hate you Yogin.

legovanan
Got this off Meghan's xanga.
Let's see how sad Elaine's life is. Out of 158 things, how many have I done?
[ ] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.
[1] I have read a lot of books.
[2] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. (i was forced!!! good thing hayley was there to drag me down acacia)
[3] I have been to Canada.
[4] I have been to Europe. (aww)
[ ]I have watched cartoons for hours.
[5] I have tripped UP the stairs. (heheh definitely)
[6] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs. (yea i was on the phone with roshi. i think he thought i died)
[7] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[8] I have played ping pong.
[9] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[10] I have seen fireworks. (last time was at downtown disney)
[ ] I have seen a shooting star. (i have always wanted to see one)
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[11] I have almost drowned.
[12] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[13] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[14] I have been on the honor roll.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
[ ] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[15] I have been ice skating. (oo i love it! ooo figure skating starts tomorrow! go sasha cohen!)
[16] I have been rollerblading.
[17] I have fallen flat on my face.
[18] have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[ ]have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[19] I have watched the power rangers. (and listened to a speech about them on saturday.. hehe)
[ ] I do attend Church regularly.
[20] I have played truth or dare.
[ ]I have already had my 16th birthday.
[ ] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[21] I've lost weight since one year ago.
[22] I've called someone stupid and meant it.
[23] I've been in a verbal argument. (daily)
[24] I've cried in school.
[25] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track team.
[26] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[27] I've climbed a rock wall. (that was painful)
[ ]I've lost more than $20.
[28] I've called myself an idiot.
[29] I've called someone else an idiot.
[30] I've cried myself to sleep.
[31] I've had (or have) pets.
[ ] I've owned a spice girls cd.
[32] I’ve owned a Britney Spears cd (it's somewhere in the back of the shelf)
[33] I've owned an N*Sync cd. (sitting near Britney Spears)
[34] I've owned a backstreet boys cd. (*SQUEALS* i'm listening to one right now! now let me show you the shape of my heart!!! awww it's BRIAN!!! and then there's nick, howie, kevin, and AJ. i love BSB!)
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[ ] I've sworn at someone in authority.
[ ] I've been in the newspaper.
[ ] I've been on TV.
[35] I've been to Hawaii.
[36] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall. (this and seeing a shooting star are on the top of my list)
[37] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies. (many, many times)
[38] I've watched all of the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[39] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[40] I've watched "Newly weds" Nick & Jessica.
[41] I've watched looney tunes
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker.
[42]I've been called a geek.
[43]I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. (chemistry is evil)
[44] not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[45] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[ ] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[46] I've written poetry
[ ] I've been arrested.
[47] I've been attracted to someone much older than me. (why does this ALWAYS happen to me?)
[48] been tickled till I've cried.
[49] tickled someone else until they cried.
[ ]I've had/have siblings.
[ ]I've been to a rock concert.
[50] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[51] I've been in a play. (my dream is to be in a musical)
[52] I've been picked last in gym class.
[53] I've been picked first in gym class. (more like basketball practice)
[54] been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[55] I've cried in front of my friends.
[56] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages. (ah i love them!)
[ ] I've played Halo 2.
[57] I've freaked out over a sports game (when don't i? MAY 25!!!!)
[ ] I've been to alaska (no but i've always wanted to)
[58] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain. (aww i want to see Madrid)
[59] I've been to Japan. (alright i'm going in like a month and half so i'm numbering is one)
[60] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[61] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[62] I've had serious conversations on any IM.
[63] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[64] I've been forgiven.
[65] I've screamed at a scary movie. (omg the Ring.)
[66] I've cried at a chick flick. (aww i cry in like every)
[67] I've watched a lot of action movies. (somehow the Lord of the Rings classifies under this)
[68] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[69] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[ ] I've driven on the highway
[ ] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day
[ ] I've been in a car accident
[ ] I've done drugs.
[ ] I've been homesick.
[70] I've thrown up. (not a nice feeling)
[ ] I've puked all over someone.
[71] I've been horseback riding.
[72] I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys. (well not myspace, but surveys)
[73]I've spoken my mind in public.
[74]I've proved someone wrong
[75]I've been proven wrong by someone. (alright ONCE and it was my DAD)
[ ] I've broken a leg.
[ ] I've broken an arm.
[76] I've fallen off a swing. (i think i've fallen off everything possible.)
[77]'ve swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[78]1've watched Winnie the Pooh movies. (OMG PIGLET IS MY HERO!!!! O Christopher Robin!)
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[ ]I've come close to dying.
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[79] I've known someone who has died.
[80] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[82] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[83] I've realized how good my life is.
[84] I've counted my blessings.
[85]I've made fun of a classmate.
[86]I've been on a date.
[ ]I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[ ] I've asked someone on a date and was turned down.
[ ]I've slapped someone in the face.
[ ] I've been skateboarding.
[87]I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[88] I've lied to someone to their face.
[89] I've told a little white lie.
[ ] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[ ] I've fainted.
[90] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[ ]I've pushed someone into a pool. (no but i've been pushed into one)
[91] I've been pushed into a pool. (well what do you know.. see above)

91 out of 158... woww i'm sad.

legovanan
I feel really pathetic yet happy at the same time. I am practically sixteen years old and here I am, sitting at my computer in the middle of the night watching old Backstreet Boys music videos. (YES! GO ELAINE AND KATHLEEN!!!)

It never gets old... Loved them at seven.. nine years later, still love them. Brian Littrell has the best voice ever to grace this earth.

My apologies to Michael Ball, as he is probably tied or ranked just a tiny bit below.

JSA was awesome. I shall ramble about that someday soon.

legovanan
Off to JSA Congress tomorrow!! I hope it'll be fun, even though I still don't know if I should be a Democrat or a Progressive. Then we get our own mini winter formal hehe, which is awesome. The girls were talking about how it sucks that it coincides with winter formal, which is why most of them aren't going. Then one of them said, "Well there's a dance there too. The only thing is that you don't know any of the guys."
I answered, "Actually, I'm kinda glad I won't know any of them."

That kinda sums up my entire mentality lately. I want to meet new people. Andy introduced me to his friend Ben, a senior today and I kinda realized it. He was cool though and I saw him twice later that day.

ENGLISH WAS SO FUN TODAY!!!!!! WE ACTED OUT ACT III OF JULIUS CAESAR! I WAS MARK ANTONY! I probably liked it that much because I could be overly dramatic, Shakespearean, and hog the limelight for the entire period. I had like all the lines. I got to make three stirring speeches, wear a toga, and be the center of the world of Mrs. Madrid's 3rd period. Michael Tamplin and Gleb were absolutely hilarious though. I'll never forget that... ahahahahahaahaah, or as gleb would say: LOL. ROFL. LOLLERSKATES, ROFLCOPTER. or something like that.

Friends, Romans, countrymen, lend me your ears

ahhh i've wanted to say that line for so long!

So Elaine's obsessing over Michael Ball with Elsa (I LOVE THEE HANNA):
Elaine: ahhh i love him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Elsa: i know GOSH! ahhh i KNOW!
Elaine: aHHHHHHHh
Elaine: I WANT TO BE IN BRITAIN DAMN IT
Elaine: I WANT TO THROW AWAY MY LIFE
Elaine: SWIM TO BRITAIN
Elaine: OR FLY
Elaine: or WHATEVER
Elaine: JUST GET THERE
Elsa: i know dammit i wanna be on a ship dammit
Elaine: AND ENROLL IN GUILDHALL
Elaine: and WASTE MY LIFE AS A SINGER/ACTRESS/WRITER
Elsa: *dies*
Elaine: fall in love with someone poignantly poetic, amazingly talented, tragically poor with a breathtaking tenor
Elaine: and DIE OF CHOLERA
Elaine: alright not cholera
Elaine: that's like diarrhea
Elaine: think of a more dramatic, beautifully tragic way to die
Elsa: me own tragic romance has to do with pirates, ye wouldn' be int'rested, heh. *breaks out the rum*
Elaine: hehehehh
Elaine: think of an isilmë tragic romance
Elaine: and tell it to me
Elaine: i'll be happy
Elaine: (it must involve elven elegance)
Elaine: (and the british)
Elaine: (and a guy who can sing)
Elaine: (named michael ball)
Elaine: alirght not necessarily michael ball, but still
Elsa: ok. no. its not. stop it. im doing this.
Elsa: *whacks you*
Elaine: hehehe
Elaine: alright but i still need a tragic way to die
Elsa: here we go...me and you buddy, we're walking through the forest. and faramir is right over there! *points* and pippin's... somewhere with the ale. *SIGH* so yes. we're um...hunting...rabbits? so we must be vewwy qwiet...*chuckles* and then! suddenly! theres a bear thing that just appears! so i shoot at it! but miss it! and hit you. ooh. crap. faramir rushes to your side and well...you die...but in his arms! right...the end.
Elaine: oy
Elaine: you're romantic
Elaine: really romantic
Elaine: i love being shot by my best friend on accident
Elaine: i live for it.. i really do

i love elsa.. ooo walked to starbucks with andy and hayley today! it was fun. andy and i scared hayley, who was looking very pretty i must say. they're both so awesome.

hehe go elsa.
this is what she told me while i was away
slimy one, slimy one! wherefore art thou slimy one? deny thy gondorian histories and refuse thy faramir loving tree hugging self! ...ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country!

you're such a weirdo hanna! we're all weirdos together! *HUG*

legovanan
Owwww I just closed my chem book on my thumb, which is bleeding underneath the nail.. OWWWW! STUPID NUMBER 33 FROM LA HABRA!!! Screw my hands up before the love concert and the last basketball game EVER for me.

I think I'm going to be an alcoholic someday. Other than the fact that the taste of alcohol is revolting to me..

I'm really liking Dido's music lately in the light of the fact that the POST OFFICE PROBABLY LOST MY MICHAEL BALL CD OR SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED.

legovanan
alright i must say i was FORCED to post this...

i'm not allowed to say who did this, but you should know who it was...

*hint scroll down*

legovanan
*sigh*
Compliments of Yogin.
I had NOTHING to do with this, but I promised I'd put whatever he sent me on here...
SO... *drumroll please*

From Yogin, otherwise known as Yogi the Bear.

legovanan
OMG YOGIN IS A GENIUS!!!!!

THE TRINITY

Alright so Elaine and Yogin are talking and Yogin's showing Elaine Indian actors and actresses and asking my opinion of their looks. So I'm like, "Alright my turn." But I can't think of anyone, and Yogin says:

yogin: i dont wanna see
yogin: the trinity
Elaine: steven gerrard?
yogin: kk
Elaine: heheheh
yogin: no trinity
yogin: k
Elaine: who?
yogin: trinity=god(fowler)son(owen)holyspirit(gerrard)
yogin: lol
Elaine: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Elaine: YOU'RE A GENIUS

So yes.. .from now on:
God: Robbie Fowler (well he's already GOD to us)
the Son: Michael Owen
the Holy Spirit: STEVEN GERRARD

For those of you who think I'm a blasphemist, take it up with Yogin. He's the one with the dot. He DEMANDS credit every time I mention them now...

It's been a good weekend. I am much happier, which is good.
Friday: Riley snuck Lindsey and I out to lunch. Burger King. Never been off campus before 6th period so that was awesome. I thought he was gonna crash half the time but that's alright. Lindsey still pisses me off, but it was nice to ditch history club and get a change. Plus rubbing in Burger King to Camron's face during AP Euro was awesome too.
Unfortunately, had to leave Euro early to get on the bus to Sunny Hills. Sat with the world's awesomest Hayley of course. The game was nerve-wracking, heart-wrenching, and just SO TENSE!!!! We were up by 2. They were up by 2. It just bounced back and forth, back and forth until the final minute when we went on a run (Ericka took that awesome charge) and won by 10! IT WAS SO AWESOME! I spent the entire game on the floor as they didn't have enough chairs and no one wanted to sit on the floor. My job was to be Hayley's personal attendent apparently hehe. I had to wake her up! She had awesome rebounds.
Spent the rest of the day researching with Yogin for debate the next day. That and drawing a wonderful picture of Andy on paint that can be viewed on his blog.

Saturday: Woke up bright and early to go to Sonora for debate. Basically spent the whole day either arguing, flowing (taking notes), or talking to Yogin. The entire speech and debate club, including Ms. Harper and Mrs. Wilson thinks we're in love. Well maybe not Mrs. Wilson since she had us last year for English and knows it's just friendly banter. Yogin is so awesome though! Ran out of my last round to the car so we made it to halftime of the Troy varsity vs Long Beach Poly game. CA #1 vs CA #2. It was great. I was so touched! Hayley saved me a seat in the PACKED GYM. I've never seen the gym that packed. I think she had to fight someone off for it. Sarah Yee is a MONSTER (in a good way). I've never seen anyone with a stance like that. She NEVER loses her man. Just watching her move is freaky. She power dribbles crazily. Wowwwww she's GREAT.

Sunday: As you might have noticed, went to Andy's house where we practiced "Unchained Melody" for the love concert on Thursday. Then we posted on each other's blogs. That was soooooo much fun!!! Mine's better than his! Go check his blog! I pigged out in his kitchen. Hehehe.

People of the week: Yogin, Hayley, Andy

legovanan

WTF is legovanan? Why does she have to start off with something like, "Hi guys" or just simply "HI" Legovanan? What the heck. It's sounds like... um.... a toy or something....

Aaaaaaaaaaaanywho.... ANDY IS DOMINATING ELAINE"S BLOG RIGHT NOWWWWW!!!! AND I WILL MAKE HORIBLLLE SPELING ERRERS TO ANNOYE THE HECK OOUT OFF ELAINE!@@!!@@!!!!!!

PUA NHAHAQYQHAHAHAHA

*hanging by her shirt on the back wall, bound and gagged Elaine is WRITHING in torture and screaming, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"*

PUA HAHAHAAH- NOW I SHALL COMENSE WIHT MY RAIN OFF TERROR!

*Elaine: NOT ROBESPIERRE!!!!!*

NOBODY CARES ELAINE! MUA HAHAHAHAHAH. WATCH ME SPELL EXERCISE like this....


ECKSERSISE!!!!!!!!!!!


PUAAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

OH OH, and how about this one....

STEEVAN JERARD!

NYA HAHAHAHAHAHA

I HAVE SOILED ALL THAT IS PURE AND HOLY IN YOUR EYES!

*Elaine: no, you haven't gotten Elvish yet*

Oh okay... hmmm.....

DANG IT I DONT KNOW ANY

*Elanie goes MUahahahaha*

Yes, Elanie.

Well, I'm will put this here then....

Elaine says, " I HATE LOTR!!!"


PUA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and now, to load up this post with meaningless crap
like... links and stuff.....







OKay, I'm done being evil

I'm not even gonna touch Liverpool... see, i have some mercy after all...

well... maybe not...
hehehehehehehehe


argh, nvm... Elaine's complaining that i'm not being creative enough.... or should i say.... ENUFF???

PUA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I SHALL DOMINATE!!!

*Elaine- OKAY you're DONE!!!*

NEVER!!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ELAINE LOVES EVERTON!!!!!!!!!!!

*Elaine calls in Elsa and her arsenal of weapons and she "glowy stick of dooms", punjabs, and carbon freezes him!!!!!*
MUAHAHAHHAHAH!
ANDY DIES!


ANDY- OR SO YOU THINK!!!!!!! IDIOTIC WEAPONS ARE NO MATCH AGAINST MY OWN IDIOCY!!!!!!

And finally, to end my temporary reign with a gesture of my love....


Steven Gerard has finally gone metro... or even futher...

legovanan
Alright Andy you're high on something.. If you want to know the cause of that little outburst, go to Andy's blog and see my BEAUTIFICATION!!!!!!!

Okay, everyone. I have a confession...


I'M IN LOVE WITH ANDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Yes, it's true. I know I've just been joking around with him all this time.

But I think I'm falling in love with him

legovanan
Two hours ago I was ready to just fall down and not get up again.
But I've been this low before and I will get back up.

You know how everyone thinks I'm completely weird, hyper, and over the top? I love being that. But the only way I've managed to keep that up is because I knew there were people it didn't matter to. I could be a totally moody b*tch one second and bouncing off the walls the other singing at the top of my lungs or reciting Elvish or screaming about Steven Gerrard and they still loved me.
It's really hard to do what Elaine is proud of, not care what other people think and just be outrageously crazy when you don't feel like you have those people anymore. At lunch and break I feel like I'm sitting with a bunch of strangers, but even worse because you can get to know strangers, develop a new friendship. I can't do that with them. They're sick of me. They're sick of the ups and downs and the jumping up and down and I don't know how to change. I don't want to change. So then insecurity pops in and I act like a total spaz. I'm not spoken to unless its ridicule and it's funny sometimes but when I'm having a bad day and am feeling totally insecure about my friendships it's really bad timing. I try and try with Camron. I try to forget what he said and be friendly but then he'll just say something else and I just totally want to wring his neck. It's even worse with Matthew. I try and try and try so hard to just get back to being friends and he doesn't seem like he wants anything to do with me except to call me lesbian with Robin. Yogin cares but it's just not the same. Robin and Ashley are awesome but I can't help being jealous of them half the time. I know they have their problems too but at least they belong at the lunch table. Matthew loves to talk to Ashley and Robin. Camron doesn't hate Ashley. They don't have to act like a total spaz. They can talk to them without formulating an insult.
I just feel if I weren't there someday no one would care. The two people I love hanging out with now are Vicki Leach and Hayley. I feel like I should just get new friends and sit somewhere else at lunch, but I don't want to give up on them. I don't want to start afresh because I remember what I had and I don't want to lose it, even though I probably already have.

Then I get home feeling like crap, hungry, and tired and my mom buys me a new backpack. I don't like it very much and my dad just starts railing at me. "HOW MANY TIMES HAVE WE BOUGHT YOU A NEW BACKPACK?! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO SPOILED AND PICKY? YOU'RE TURNING INTO ONE OF THOSE PLAYBOYS THAT JUST PICK THE HOT GIRL AND DUMP HER. (except the fact that I'm a girl) WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH? DON'T YOU THINK OF ANYBODY?" I'm SORRY if my MOTHER just picks the freaking bargain bin and doesn't even realize who she's buying for. First she buys me a purple backpack that says AMERICAN PRINCESS on it. Then she comes home with a HOT PINK BACKPACK. And they don't understand why I don't like them.

And it's now 7:40 and I haven't started my homework yet and am in no mood to do it.
And to top it off, Michael Ball CD STILL NOT HERE YET.