OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COOPER ASKED MANDY OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was soooooooo cool!!!!!!!1 me, isaac and roshi were like dying there!!!!!!!!!stupid @$$ eddie and camron... we changed seats in history. guess who i sit bhind? CAMRON!!!! isn't it lovely?o well, eddie, roshi, izzy, and jeff r all there so itz cool... tho itz like right in the corner by the door, not a very great area. o well, i like the ppl around..

i went 2 a St. Paul's school reception. it was actually pretty nice... it was in a BEAUTIFUL house. it was absolutely beautiful... newayz, the ppl were really nice and St. Paul's seemed like a nice school... the Dean of Admissions was really nice. and................ there was a REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HOT guy there!!!!! his name was charles but okay.. another kid named Evan... he was really really small... it was funny.. every1 was in the 8th grade, charles kept eating and evan kept singing. we're like SHUT UP!!!! but it was cool. dunno, still prefer Ayala w/ Mandy and Isaac or Troy w/ Kathleen and Andy

78 days till the Lord of the Rings: Return of the King!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
78 days till three hours of heaven in a movie theater!!!!!!!!!
78 days till three hours of blissful awareness of a little hobbit!!!!
78 days till the new sight of a tall, blonde elf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
78 days till a ranger from the North will b made King of Gondor!!!
78 days!!!!!1

i love LOTR 2 much.... okay just thought i'd get that through...

newayz, went 2 LA County Fair w/ Mandy yesterday... it was pretty cool.. now mandy feels "wasted" and that her "insides are made of grease" she's weird... or just health conscious. we both bought a necklace and tons of food. well 4 me it was more of drinks and she's sooooo obsessed w/ onion and garlic (u'd think she's walking around w/ a vampire or something.. uh-oh mayb i'm 1,) okay that was just weird.
i got my street ball tape back!!!! now i can obsess over the professor again!!!

yesterday actually was a good day, suprisingly enough... isaac FINALLY let me borrow LOTR DVD!!!!!! ITS SSSOOOOOOO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i watched the special features last nite and i'm halfway through the movie 2day... i'm planning on spending my every waking moment on it but of course, my dad would never allow it.. Camron was being nice 2 me... isn't it scary??? i can't blieve he actually did that.. o well, itz a good thing.
mandy supposedly had a nice lunch yesterday (i dunno what happened, @ least the 2nd part of it, bcuz i was w/ Camron) tho i'm hoping what Rachel said was true but i don't think it is, well @ least not the "asking out on monday" thing, i think thaT cooper likes mandy tho... i'm not sure... o well, itz all pretty good rite now.
I WANNA NO WHAT I GOT ON MY MATH TEST!!!! i think camron was rite (un4tunately) i should've just asked 4 it on friday, now i have 2 live through the wkend in suspense..... Mandy got an 84 (i think) she's really happy so itz all good..

now, back 2 work so i can go back 2 LOTR

u no this is a very boring time basketball-wise.. c, Streetball's over (NNNNNOOOOO!!!!!PROFESSOR!!!!!!!!) and NBA hasn't started yet (gO spurs!!!!!)so lemme c,
NBA: starts in end of Oct, ends in June
Street Ball: starts in June, ends in late August.
so.... September and mostof October. thatz like 2 months. i don't think i can survive... i've watched my streetball tape immeasurable times... i have about 9 tapes of 2 spur games each and i've watched those already. last nite i watched Spurs vs. Mavs game 6 (tony parker had the flu that day, poor baby)

2day was a good day.. this is funny. i've just realized that i've been saying, 2dy is a good day alot and itz pretty weird bcuz i've been expectin this week 2 b crappy..so far so good xcept i moved in English. and once again i say, I HATE MY SEAT!!!!!!!!!! but alrite, crap dad's coming home, rite more later

u no i think Mandy really really really really does like Cooper... itz kinda weird but itz pretty cool i guess. i'm not sure if he likes her but he kept hugging her 2day... but then he's overly-friendly 2 most ppl. i hope he does. o wellz.... i dunno.. Camron's a freak

u no being secretary is actually a lot of work. most ppl dont think that. well u try having a business meeting where u have 2 take notes on a thousand bills and then have 2 write abou 15 thank u cards 4 ppl!!!! o well itz all cool. itz fun i guess, tho u get tired of writing the SAME thing OVER AND OVR AND OVER again... and ur hand starts 2 hurt and freakin ROSHI GOT CABLE!!!!!! i hate him!!!!!!! now he's all bragging about high speed connection and all that crap.

i think Mandy had a REALLY nice day 2day... especially @ lunch. letz juss say she and a person were very close 2day.... 2 close.

I HATE MY NEW SEAT IN ENGLISH!!!! y did i have 2 move?!?!?!??i didn't start it!!!!!!! Now James is gonna bug the sh*t of me... i liked sitting in front of camron.. it was fun!

here's this poem that i read the other day.. itz really really really good. well @ least in my opinion. itz short, sad, and sweet.

The Night Has a Thousand Eyes by Francis William Bourdillon

The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done.

2day wasn't that bad actually... I DON'T WANT 2 MOVE IN ENGLISH!!!!! i like my seat... 4 obvious reasons (ne1 in my English class would no) but thatz alrite... Cooper wasn't @ school 2day... :(
we all missed him but i think mandy especially... no reasons y... i think i'm putting 2 many of the "..."
Lunch was fun 2day bcuz i could yell @ camron and roshi and not get dissed back (i love it when they need my help. i can diss them, and not get dissed back @ an extreme which i usually have 2 take) izzy was really funny 2day.
i discovered my 1st "official" job as secretary 2day, writing thank u notes... isn't it lovely? i mean i've taken notes during business meetings but it wasn't "official" or wahtevr. itz actually not that bad xcept that i have 2 write a thanks note 2 Kenneth, thatz not cool. jkjk.

2day was a good day.. my history teacher is evil, he's really cool actually but 2day i'm gonna say he's evil. he dissed me sooo bad!! I HAVE 2 GET THAT TEACHER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the diss he gave me. u no how i was running 4 secretary ( and got the job) teacher vote counts really highly so i was bugging him about it (yes i no u ppl think i'm a teacher's pet)
me: Mr. Kalmar!! u no u want 2 vote 4 me!!!!
Mr. Kalmar: i do?
me: yea! u no i'm ur fav student and u just love me and want 2 vote 4 me!!!
Mr. Kalmar: Illusions can be kind.

and 2day, my English teacher said all this stuff about me and this certain guy i..... like..... no names.. she kept asking when the honeymoon was and who's last name we'd b going under so she could change her class roster.. it was funny but sad.. WE DO NOT ACT LIKE AN OLD MARRIED COUPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cough* isaac *cough* mandy *cough* roshi

me and mandy went 2 the movies 2day. we saw "Fighting Temptations" which was really funny and had some REALLY good disses in it and Pirates of the Carribean 4 the 5th time. i no, obsession. Orlando Bloom is soooooo HOT!!!!!!!! thatz a great movie. Johnny Depp is really good and hilarious.. i dunno.. i have a feeling me and mandy r prolly feeling the same way. well i think her problem is more complex. i no, we sound like 2 boring teenage girls who have nothing better 2 do than wry about guys and that will takes us nowhere in life. i dunno. i no i really shouldn't care about guys but i dunno.. i'm prolly just pathetic.

what do u do when u like a guy but u no he likes some1 else but he was just rejected by that girl? u no u shouldn't like him bcuz he prolly will never like u but u can't help it?

what do u do when a guy supposedly likes u but acts completely opposite. he's ur friend but bcuz he supposedly likes u he's a total b*tch 2 u? u no he prolly likes ur or whatevr but u no itz never gonna go ne where?

u no i never thought that deciding which HS 2 go 2 would b this hard. I thought applying for schools was 4 college. but no... my parents just have 2 complex everything don't they. here's a list of HS i may possible b goin 2 and the chances of me going 2 them on a 1-10 scale (10 being good)
Ayala (local HS, not that great) 2
Chino Hills (local HS, even worse) .5
Troy (great school, tho itz tech) 4
Sunny Hills (good school, humanities) 6
Webb (girls school, DO NOT WANT 2 GO) 5
Whittier (in Cerritos, the #1 school in CA, there's 150 ppl in 1 grade, isn't it lovely? *sarcasm*) 6
Andover (boarding, in Massachusetts) 5
Deerfield (also in MA, also boarding) 5.5
Choate (in Connecticut, boarding again) 4.5
St Paul's (in New Jersey, boarding, catholic) 6
St Lucy's (girls school, isn't it lovely?) 3

there u have it. now here r the 1s that i wouldn't mind going 2.
Ayala (my friends)
Troy (some of my friends, @ least 4 but itz tech and i'm a humanities person)
Chino Hills (i really don't want 2 go there bcuz itz a crappy school but 2 of my friends r going there)
then 1 of the boarding schools would b okay, i guess.

well 2day's my friend Andy's bday so yea happy bday 2 him or whatevr... newayz, yesterday was my uncle's bday so we celebrated it 2day. it was interesting. i have 2 work on my stories again, i haven't written nething in a while, or @ least not much. ISAAC 4GOT 2 BRING ME LOTR TT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm soooooo pissed... but then itz Isaac so i have 2 live w/ it. y do i have 2 listen 2 him?!

well i made a speech in front of the school 2day. it was nerve racking. all of us (the candidates) kept shaking and those stupid bright lights KEPT SHINING!!!! i swear we were hot enough up there nervously wringing our hands and trying not 2 faint... we were all REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY, need i say more NERVOUS!!!!! here's who i'm gonna vote 4:
Historian: Connie
Director of Pride and Patriotism: Ryan (or Celeste, making up my mind)
Treasurer: Lily
Secretary: ME!!!!!!! or Mickey Mouse (jkjk)
Vice President: not really sure about it. ne of the 4 would do really good but since Ashley's my friend i'll prolly vote 4 her. the 4 of them r all really good tho.
President: John, even tho i think Sam is prolly gonna win. no 'fense 2 the other guys.

i dunno... it was fun tho... nerve wrecking but fun. Camron keeps bugging me about it and Mandy won't stop "trying" key word "Trying" 2 imitate me.

poem that i wrote a few wks ago. kinda reflects how i feel about a certain person... not naming names.

When we met, I thought nothing of you.
We got to know each other.
I found your smile familiar.
You became my friend.
And we did much together.
And soon enough,
you came crawling through the gates into my heart.
Though I did not want it,
I could do nothing to stop it.

They told me to tell you.
They told me to admit it.
But I couldn’t, I couldn’t admit it to you,
Before I admitted it to myself.

But now, no matter how much I wanted to,
I will never get that chance.
We will never get the chance, of what might have been.
For the time is gone,
the chances vanished,
never to return.

You left my life as abruptly as you entered it.
But this time, the effect was dramatic.

I can’t believe that I let you leave,
without knowing what was really inside my heart.
But now, you will never know.

Life is short, there is no time to waste.
Tell people how you feel, before it’s too late.

ASB Elections 2morrow!!!!!!!! have 2 make a speech in front of the whole school, isn't it lovely???? I'm GONNA DIE!! o well, Mandy and Kathleen no my last wishes so.... newayz, finished watching the Season Premiere of Everwood.... HOW COULD COLIN DIE?!!!!!!?!?!?!??!?!!??!?!??! they can't do this 2 me!!!!! i like colin... o wellz, there's still Emphram, i liked colin! Amy's a b*tch!!!! i'm sry but she is... newayz, trying not 2 think about Elections

i'm tellin u i'm completely obsessed w/ Lord of the Rings. I'm also completely obsessed w/ poetry. so here's so LOTR poetry (combined my 2 obsessions) that i completely love.

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by frost,
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall pring,
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
(JRR Tolkein, Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring)

r all guys weird or is it just me? i mean guys r great, like 90% of my friends r guys. their great 2 hang out w/ but completely clueless @ times. y do guys think girls r confusing? GUYS R CONFUSING!!!!

have u ever felt that the world's coming down on u? like every1's crowding in on u and like nothing is going rite? i mean like on the outside i act all hyper and happy and optimistic and all that crap and when ppl make fun of me i laugh along w/ it but inside i feel lost, lonely, and utterly confused, like a little kid all alone in a corner. i dunno i just sometimes wish ppl wouldnt' take me 4 just what i show on the outside and take the time 2 listen and actually discover who i am on the inside.

itz funny tho, have u ever noticed that when ur feeling depressed, the weirdest ppl can make u feel better. like ppl u don't even really no that well or usually don't take the time 2. i mean don't get me wrong my friends r great but i guess sometimes u have 2 hear it from some1 ur not that close 2... i dunno, life is weird, confusing, and unpredictable. but i guess thatz what makes it worth living bcuz u dunno whatz gonna happen so u have something 2 get up 4 every day. i dunno.. i have weird thoughts.

went 2 the Ontario Mills Mall, didn't buy nething, well xcept 4 some candy, i couldn't resist.. hehehe. my parents r gonna kill me.. o well.. saw a bunch of LOTR stuff in 1 of the stores. i'm telling u i'm hooked on that stuff. i was soooooo TEMPTED!!! Mandy wouldn't let me buy ne tho, she kept literally DRAGGING me out of the store. itz prolly a good thing, waste of $$ prolly but i don't care. i want that DVD!! i'm hoping Isaac will let me borrow it soon. still feeling a bit low 2day, still dunno exactly y. finger still jacked up so STILL no piano. my teacher's gonna kill me. yay! school 2morrow. i no i'm a freak. school gives me something 2 do @ least and i get 2 c my friends!! got ideas 4 another poem 2day, itz weird, sometimes inspiration comes @ the weirdest times in the weirdest places. 4 instance i thought of it @ in-n-out 2day when my mom was talking. i don't think i was listening (guilty shrug) o wellz.... i'll talk more later.

Streetball's over so there's nothing 2 watch.... nothing 2 occupy my head xcept 4 my insignificant thoughts...
o wellz... @ least the Professor won. he really deserved it. Go Grayson! o well.. i still have my 6 hr tape of the whole Mix Tape tour and my thoughts of him 2 obsess over... i no i sound pathetic...

whoa this is cool, i actually created a blog!! not that ne1 would b crazy/stupid enough 2 read it.... newayz, feeling a bit depressed these past few days... i dunno, prolly just PMSing or something..... (teenage angst) newayz, school's going pretty well, ez so far. i have my friends in all my classes so thatz cool. i have some in a lil 2 many of my classes but alrite. English is 2 ez... my finger is still screwed up but itz alrite.. i hope roshi's neck's alrite. ooo and matt's. thatz enough 4 now i guess, 2morrow prolly gonna go 2 the movies or something.. life is boring and humdrum (dull, rite ben? inside joke) school livens it up a bit but then some events of the day make u think more and depress u....