legovanan
we're basically done w/ building our RG project. NOW, all we have 2 do is GET IT TO WORK!!!!!!!

i felt so bad for camron. his dad was getting all pissed off @ him..

it really sucks, bcuz there's only 9 more days of JR high left, and there's a bunch of stuff i haven't done or said that i think i should. there's a few ppl that i used to be really close with that i've like drifted away from and it really sucks, bcuz their going to ayala, and i won't have a chance to like "get back together" in a sense. there's so much that i could say, but i just can't find the voice or a way to say it. i don't know. it just really sucks, and then the ppl i have actually managed to befriend and gotten close with, i have to say goodbye to...

okay no depressing stuff! GET UR HW DONE ELAINE!!!

legovanan
i'm feeling random, so i'll rant. i was talking to ryan earlier, and he really made me think.
have u ever thought that everything was just planned out for you? that everything was a plan, a puppet show and we're the puppets on the string. everything falls into place, right where it should be, every piece where it should be, all planned out. they call it my life, but I hold not the strings that control it. if something goes wrong, u die.

have u ever wondered about death? no, i'm not being suicidal, i feel life is a gift, though it can be a b*tch @ times. i mean, if ur not living, how can u experience anything? but seriously, what is death? what happens? i guess this is why ppl have religions, to explan what happens after death. to Christians, u go to heaven, or hell. if your buddhist, ur reincarnated. but u know, do u know anything after death? what happens? where do u go? i mean, no one has ever come back from the dead, so how do we know what it feels like? i mean, i know it's natural, but nature scares me too. i think thatz one of the many reasons i love Tolkien's works, is that his biggest theme is probably death. and he uses the mortals and elves really well 2 portray that. i was reading something on Finrod at Beor's death. it really changed my perspective on death. for u negligent ppl. Beor is a mortal King, and Finrod is King of the Elves, or @ least of Nargothrond. Beor is on his deathbed and Finrodi s angry and can't understand why he has to die, and it really contrasts the Elven and the mortal view on death:

“Why do you fear death so?” Beor asked inquisitively, his eyes questioning. The fact that even now, gravely ill, his friend did not end his pursuit of knowledge brought a hint of a smile to Finrod’s face as he considered the question.

“It is unnatural. Why create a life that will be cut off in the middle, before men have enough time to accomplish anything?” he asked, his brow furrowed. “Why always fall to death before you are finished here?”

“I would say it is your kind that is unnatural. Plants, birds and beasts: they all grow, and then they die,” he replied, the smile gone now, as he patiently worded his answer. He gestured with a frail arm as he spoke. “You are the only ones who remain here, mourning always for those who do not. I would rather live a full life, a happy one, then linger here throughout the years.”
“But how can you not fear the end?” Finrod protested, his face somber. “For that is what it is, death.”

“Nay, it is merely a new beginning. My likeness will carry on in my descendants, and my remains will become earth again, creating new life,” Bëor replied softly. “It comforts me.”

legovanan
got this off andy's blog.. itz really scary. i alwayz get them from him, and like half of the answers he has i wanna keep, but i'll end up altering. wow, do me and andy actually have something in common? but i'm currently very IRATE w/ him. i c how it is andy!!!!! U CANT EVEN SPELL MY LAST NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but neway, here's this weird survey thing 2 pass the time when i really should be finishing history hw. o well, if we all did what we were supposed 2 do, this wouldn't be the world we're in.

Who are you?

1. Name: Elaine... French version of Helen. means light. translates into Isilme in Elvish. shall i go on?
2. Birthday: March 22
3. Describe yourself in 3 words: Lamenting for Endor (Endor is another word for Middle-Earth, Con)
4. Zodiac sign: Aries, fits me doesn't it? hey andy, now that i think about it, ur like the epitome of a Virgo!

What is your favorite:
5. color: white and blue. the white foam creases the blue waves of the Sea... i'm telling u, this obsession if really unhealthy
6. animal: dogs, eagles, i would say gulls, but Connie would kill me
7. movie: the Lord of the Rings
8. sport: BASKETBALL!!! SPURS!!
9. t.v. show: ER, Streetball, Everwood, Smallville
10. subject in school: history (and English)
11. board game: thatz a hard one. not really a game person. i'll say Monopoly bcuz itz the last one i played
12. stuffed animal: my first teddy bear taht i still have. kathleen knows it.
13. food: fast (my mom wants 2 kill me) this is another hard one. i like alot of foods.. um.. Italian (excluding fast food & Chinese)

Personal
14. What would you change about yourself? be more patient and quiet.
15. What is your greatest fear? failing & not being loved
16. What do you look for in a guy? nice answer andy.. um.. physically: really sweet eyes. i have this theory about ppl's eyes i'll probably ramble about later. personality-wise: have a sense of humor. likes me for who i am, not what i can give them. intelligence-level: well, i have 2 be able 2 hold a conversation w/ them so yea.
17. How many piercings do you have? hell no. NONE
18. Do you have a tattoo? NO
19. Do you do drugs? NO!

At this moment:
20. What are you wearing? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!! jkjk. a shirt, shorts, and other undergarments, watch, glasses, need i go on?
21. Where are you? sitting @ my computer, taking this stupid survey, attempting 2 do my history hw, and writing my story.
22. What drives you crazy? people who are sooo ignorant of Tolkien's works.
23. What CD is in your CD player? the Troy Soundtrack i bought yesterday @ Borders. itz not as good as i expected, but has like 5 really good songs. James Horner isn't as good as Howard Shore though!
24. What book are you reading? the Aeneid of Virgil, and Tolkien!!!

The Last:
25. thing you ate: rice
26. movie you watched: Charlie's Angels 2: Full Throttle. hey it was on TV!! @ the movie theater: TROY!!
27. site you visited: Andy's blog
28. time you cried: yesterday
29. time you sang: attempted 2? um, this morning
30. person you Imed: whitney
31. person you yelled at: my mom... sad answer
32. person you called: kathleen
33. person you slow danced with: o god. remember 2 the last dance. i think it was Jared, but i'm not sure.
34. person you hugged: Kathleen
35. person you kissed: your mom!! okay that was wrong coming from me. i think my daddy.

Have you ever:
33. been in love? define love
34. received an “F”? <-- i can't read it and i really don't want 2
35. been stuck in a closet? yea... somebody thought it was funny. (KA, remember Frank's house?)
36. been outside the U.S.? 2 many times
37. shoplifted? Nope
38. saved a life? no
39. done something that you regret? too many...
40. had a broken heart? if i had a heart, i would tell u. jkjk. um, probably

Preferences
41. Girls or boys? boys... **stupid grin**
42. Gold or silver? silver
43. Computer or cell phone? Computer
44. Coke or Pepsi? pepsi
45. Regular or chocolate milk? regular
46. White or wheat bread? white, definitely, though my mom keeps lecturing me about it
47. Cats or dogs? Dogs

Last questions
48. Do you believe in true love? i'll tell you when i have it
49. Do you believe in God? no comment. camron shut up
50. Did you enjoy filling this out? passes the time. i'm so stupid

legovanan
"remember" is such an awesome song, but i know we're probably not gonna get it 4 promotion, bcuz it has this really big Middle-Eastern feel, and itz haunting... McNair wants happy stuff... why??

i try not to think about promotion, but everything is kinda revolving around it, so it's really hard...

i was thinking today (i know, itz a shock) and i developed a theory (get ready 4 another rant. andy, ur a bad influence!)
ppl use the phrase "in a perfect world", but what is a perfect world? that question has been asked and ppl have striven for it.. Utopians, Shakers, etc. but a perfect world is impossible, bcuz everyone's idea of perfection is different. i might feel a perfect world is Middle-Earth in the Fourth Age, while Andy might think it's a society where every1 tolerates each other... sry. not gonna happen, me or andy's scenarios, un4tunately. so therefore, a perfect world is actually imperfect, bcuz no matter what, somebody will always be able to discern a flaw. Perfection is in the eye of the beholder".

andy, u see what u have done???

legovanan
life is cruel and heartless... life consists of change. right when u think u have found happiness, in a friend, in a place, in a story, life takes it away from u. right when u think u've made friends, right when u've found ppl that u love and are happy with, u have to leave them...

i'm getting depressed 2 wks 2 early!!

i found the most awesome song, itz off the Troy soundtrack, and.. ITZ BY JOSH GROBAN!!!! i heard it in the theater, w/ the credits and i'm like, "Wait, kathleen! we gotta stay. i know taht voice! itz Josh Groban". it fits the theme of TRoy, but it also kinda fits how i feel. i would propose it 4 promotion song, but itz kinda weird, bcuz it has a middle-eastern feel, and ppl would think i'm weirder tahn i am now. why waste my breath. itz awesome though. ROSHI DOWNLOAD IT 4 me, PLEASe? i wonder if i can fit the lyrics on my info side on this blog..



"Remember"

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun

I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me

I am the one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky

As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die

Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me

Remember me...

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me

Remember me
Remember... me...

i hope i'll be remembered, one day

legovanan

May it be
An evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be
when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh how far you are from home

Mornie Utulie
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie Alantie
A promise lives within you now

May it be the shadow's call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun

Mornie Utulie
Believe and you will find your way

Mornie Alantie
A promise lives within you now

A promise lives within you now...

i don't know why i put that song right there! i dunno, i just wanted something w/ @ least SOME elvish 2 make myself feel better

legovanan
my chatter's being weird lately, according 2 Connie, but tehn again, she's just weird. no fense con! but yea, if it doesn't show the 1st time, just enter it again, and it'll probably show. thatz what i do...

this is my horoscope 4 today, kinda freaky, bcuz it's kinda true:
Aries March 21 - April 19
You may be feeling moodier and more sensitive than usual these days. Don't worry too much about figuring out why. Instead, focus on the positive; sometimes, the most emotional times are when you're most creative.

creative=writing

talent show 2morrow!!

i got merit 4 piano exam, and now my dad is like all disappointed and i got this HUGE lecture. my dad doesn't understand that i myself, want 2 do well. he makes it sound like i never care about stuff @ school and that i don't make myself feel bad enough. EESH!! besides, merit isn't bad!!! seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i got 127!!! what do u want from me?! i've gotten merit my whole life, except 4 Grade 7, and now just bcuz of taht, i'm expected 2 get distinction. go kathleen though!! as if i don't make myself feel bad enough. i had tears welling up and he didn't bother to notice.

2day in Leadership, Mcnair started talking about the songs that we were going 2 play in promotion, and she played some of the 1s from the past for us. grr... i felt like i was gonna cry. as if i needed more reminding that i'm not gonna be in these ppl's classes ever again. i mean, some ppl i've known since preschool, while others, i've only known this yr, but i'll still miss them all.

okay i'm done rambling... for now

legovanan
i was feeling a bit down, and so i went back 2 andy's blog, and started reading, and in his archives, i stumbled across my AA! it made me feel good... (what kind of a person am i?? i read andy's archives when i'm bored and when i need 2 boost my self-esteem) but neway, my AA did make me feel a lot better. 4 all u negligent ppl, an AA is an "Andy Award", in which andy compliments ppl... i've done a few on here. c andy, something u did made elaine feel happy! which is probably a bad thing.. jkjk

so now, i'm gonna pass it on. hmm... who shall be my unfortunate victim this time.
hmm... WHITNEY!!!!!!!
well, as i have called her, 2 her great annoyance (whitney i love ya) Bubble butted toad stool, or her Elvish name, Tolistil...
she is the youngest of the 4 Miners, though the tallest, which i find amusing. but the thing about whitney is that she's a really kind person, which i really don't say very often. when u consort with her, u know that she cares about u. we annoy each other alot, and i make fun of her blondeness, though she's actually rather smart. she puts herself down a bit 2 much, like, "i suck at basketball" and i put her down even more.. ::shrugs guitily:: but overall, whitney is a very very nice person. u know she cares when she asks u something, and she's the type of person, when she asks, "How are you?" she actually stops 2 listen what the reply is. u realize how seldom we do that? we ask, "what up?" but we never really hear the reply? another society fault! so yea, there's whit (tolistil) 4 u! very nice person, and i'm really really really relaly relaly really REALLY gonna miss her when this yr ends... okay this is supposed 2 make me feel better, not depressed!!!

legovanan
only like 2 wks left of school..... con! where is that poem?!

roshi's being perverted!! as alwayz... "i pity the fool" o shut up boy

we won!! THE SPURS WON THE CANYON HILLS 2nd LUNCH SEVEN GAME SERIES!!!!!!! we SLAUGHTERED them, even Siemaf admitted it!! pity... if it weren't for taht damn .4 shot!!! stupid Fisher.

did leadership try-outs 2day. 7th graders were so.. odd

life is mundane

legovanan
added matt 2 links...

dinner, gottat post later

legovanan
andy was saying some very depressing yet truthful things on his blog today that really made me think. grr. he made me think.. not a good thing. don't read this if u don't want 2 hear elaine preaching/wallowing

everybody has their own role, their own reason for existing. (sry for the stereotyping) some are leaders, who are assertive and aggressive, striving for the limelight, pushing others aside. others prefer to hide in the corner, following, doing what their told to do and working. some are quiet, yet have their own thoughts and ideas, yet do not express them, and are taken for granted. others are humorous and witty, brightening the day for those around them. there are lots more, but it'd be midnight before i'm done. none of these roles are better than the other. we need all of them to stay sane (or in my case insane)

ppl hide themselves, behind a mask bcuz they are insecure. they feel like the real person behind it is not good enough, not "cool" enough, not smart enough, not interesting enough. but as much as we want to, it's hard to take the mask off, bcuz it's like revealing your soul and the secrets buried deep down inside of your heart. it makes you vulnerable, and true, u may be attacked or taken advantage of a few times, but that's all part of life. that's how u learn. that's how u trust. taking off the mask is hard bcuz u have nothing to retreat back to once u do. the shell is gone.
when you are infected by pain, u grow accustomed to it and though it hurts, it's hard to take yourself out of the pain, bcuz u're scared that if u do, it'll happen again. u fear that pain will attack u again, and this time, u won't be able to withstand it, and at least this pain is familiar. that's why ppl are so afraid of change. at least this pain is familiar. if u step up, go the extra length, who knows what other pains and torments will be out there, lurking, waiting for u to hit them.

thanks for reading/listening to my ramble. andy, it's a chain reaction

legovanan
ayala was uneventful.. though depressing...
trying not 2 dwell on it

saw andy this morning!!! nice entry about the lady @ Starbucks. i told my mom, and she's like, "That's true. isn't it?" i'm like :OH NO::

spent day @ cousin's... played a little bball

LAKERS WON!!!!!!!! (NOOO) stupid camron. i was @ his house yesterday.. evil person. him and his dad against me! NOT COOL. evil little brothers..

Spurs are still teh best. i don't care what the heck u say. Connie, this is like my thing, "LOTR IS NOT OVER, i don't care what the heck u say" or "Middle-Earth exists!!! if only in my mind" itz another 1 of those...

legovanan
grrrr... i look around me and i don't find anything to do, but then, there's too much to do. that was such a paradox.

Spurs aren't playing. Kings aren't playing. No good stories/poems out there every day. Kathleen's always busy. Connie's not on. No TV. Too much Internet not good for you.

All I have to do is writing...

great, at this rate, i'm seriously going to take connie's suggestion. i will actually be so fluent in Sindarin and Quenya that I will be spouting it even more than I do now..

i guess i should be grateful. At least i'm not like Kathleen or Andy, weighed down by all these final projects. ah well, i will be next year. i might as well enjoy my pre-Troy time while I can...

i will be severely depressed tomorrow. your all warned. we're going to Ayala...

legovanan
laalalalallalalalala. Kings vs. T-Wolves right now. GAME 7! go Kings!! please win!!! i need somebody 2 root 4 in the finals!! though i still love the Spurs more than any team...

i need to write poetry. it will make the listlessness go away... again, i feel like tumbleweed-drifting around w/o much of a purpose.
what am I doing on this Earth? what am i supposed to achieve? What am i supposed to give? What is my purpose? Do i simply drift from day to day until death closes my eyes?

i'm not depressed, merely restless

legovanan
awww i was just reading the final Spurs quotes for this season. out of like the 6 guys interviewed, Tony Parker was the only 1 who sounded all guiltridden and depressed... look what he said:
On getting knocked out of the playoffs - “It hurts, it hurts. That’s for sure. For me it’s a big loss. I didn’t sleep much after the game.”

poor boy
he also said about the Lakers:
"I don't think they did nothing special to beat us."
bad grammar, double negative, but then again, he's French. love ya parker!!!

happy belated birthday 2 him!!

legovanan
i stole this from Nicole. itz sad bcuz most of us fail to do this...
take chances. tell the truth. date someone totally wrong for you. say no. spend all your cash. fall in love. get to know someone random. be random. say i love you. sing out loud. laugh at stupid jokes. cry. apologize. tell someone how much they mean to you. tell a jerk what you think. laugh till your stomach hurts and your eyes water. live life. and most of all... have no regrets.

legovanan
stumbled across a very good poem:
Namarie, Prince of Elves
Namarie, Prince of Elves

The Sun is setting on her nightly bed,
As the first stars begin to shine
The twilight dawn is near at hand,
And so is your parting from this great land.

Will you sing for me one last time before you leave?
Or should I keep your fair voice treasured in my memory?
The forest will miss you, and so will the night
But Spring with all her splendour awaits for you,
in the Land of Light.

For you hold the last memory of greatest deeds
And the hearts of those long parted, now for your presence plead;
Hear the voices of your fair kindred call
To sail the vast sea, and return home.

The wind is now calling from the West, your final destination
Fare you well, Prince of Elves, your ship is waiting;
May the Sun and Moon guide you, and the stars above guard you
And may your memory remain in all the hearts that loved you.
Namarie, Prince of Elves...

legovanan
blah blah blah... nineteen days of school left. 19 days of isaac, connie, nicole, amanda, roshi, andres, karisha, maria, ryan A, ryan L, whitney, breezy, jo, jeff, vince, etc. if i 4got ne1, sry!

life is uneventful and meaningless...

roshi calls it the, grr.. i 4got his original words, i think it was:
spurs lost, it's natural. itz called the aftershock. u like that .4 second!!!

legovanan
okay, the moment u've all been dreading... elaine's VERY critical analysis of the movie "Troy"
IT WAS SOOOOOOO HISTORICALLY INACCURATE IT WASNn'T EVEN FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the movie should be called "ACHILLES" not "TROY"
they glorified Achilles sooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!! i mean, he was MORAL!!! AChilles and moral do not belong in the same sentence, EVER!!!!
the ending was too perfect!! i mean, i'm glad Paris doesn't die, bcuz i really didn't want 2 c Orlando's guts spilling out, but still!!!
the Briseis/Achilles love story COMPLETELY takes away from the Helen/Paris romance, which is supposed 2 be the focal point of the story! i mean, she was like his sex slave, not lover!
Agamemnon was NOT supposed 2 die by Briseis' hand, even though that was kinda awesome, bcuz i wnated 2 shoot him. he was supposed 2 go home, and get murdered by his wife and her lover.
Menelaus was NOT supposed 2 die. he was basically the only 1 2 survive and go home all happily. but i do admit that by Hector killing him, it did strengthen Hector's character even more.
Helen and Paris runnign off 2gether nad SURVIVING in the end????? u GOT TO BE KIDDING ME
one word: Hector
best part of the entire movie... Hector.. oh Hector. why did u have 2 die?? even though that was what happened... grr... Eric Bana did a good job w/ Hector. and no, i do NOT like Eric Bana. i've liked the character Hector ever since i read the book. tho Eric Bana has a REALLY sexy voice.
okay i'll stop there.
basic summary: The movie is good, if u really don't care about the real story.

i'm gonna go c it again sometime

legovanan
u know, i should change this layout, not that i don't love Legolas, to one thatz like PURE black, and is all depressing...

spurs lost...

i sobbed, as Kathleen would know.
i was okay until they showed Tony Parker's face.

BLAH

legovanan
lakers playing spurs right now!!!!!!!! come on spurs!!! kick their @$$es!!!!!

but neway, we had pizza party in Leadership today. i stuffed myself!!!

and in the Canyon Hills 2nd Lunch Basketball Seven Game Series, con, we need 2 come up w/ a shorter name 4 that. the SPURS (my team, hehe i'm captain) ARE WINNING!!!!!! TWO-NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOO!!! HAHAHA DAMN LAKERS!!! herea re the teams, there are 6 starters and 2 subs. we've also named ourselves players on the respective teams
Spurs (my team):
Connie (Tony Parker, tho i tell her she's not cute enough 2 be)
Me, Elaine (Tim Duncan.. yes i know i'm not good enough! but hey! in real life, Parker & Duncan are like BEST friends, so maybe in that aspect...) (i am also Pop, that is Gregg Popovich!! always screaming...)
Zach (maybe Bruce Bowen?? or Hedo Turkoglu...)
Kush (Devin Brown)
Cayden (Manu Ginobili)
Cody (hmm... i don't know. probably... Robert Horry??)
Subs:
Jesus (i think i spelled it right. Rasho Nesterovic)
Mario (Malik Rose)

STUPID LAKERS:
Ricky
Sean
Lester (the only person who scores, so i'd say Kobe)
Siemaf (SHAQ, DEFINITELY. no1 on the court half as big as him! no 'fense man!)
Ben (Payton...)

Subs:
Daniel (god i'm gonna kill him)
Johnny

grr.. i can't remember who their last starter was!! help me out here Con!
c the good thing about our team (Spurs) is, we actually SUB!!!! like every min or 2, we call some1 out. me and connie have almost like a rotation chart in our heads. itz kinda funny.
SPURS ARE GONNA WIN!! BOTH AT CANYON HILLS AND IN THE NBA

legovanan
damn science test tomorrow.

I WATCHED THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROSHI, I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even tho thatz probably not a good thing 2 u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was AWESOME!!!! i cried, again... i am such an idiot.

just got back from Target, bought Roshi's present. he better like it. happy bday early roshi!!!!

legovanan
everyone craves attention. another unfortunate part of human nature. whether u are the class clown, the teacher's pet, or the quiet one (stereotypes) u still want attention, and ur behavior reflects how u go about getting it.
some ppl act all giddy & happy, when their really not, 2 attract it. others play practical jokes & pranks 2. some always dish out witty remarks in class. others answer all the questions the teacher asks. a few seem like their very quiet and shy, but once u pry them out of their shell, their as loud & outgoing as anyone.
so next time when u accuse ppl of trying 2 get attention, stop and think about it. u want it too and u have your own way of going about 2 get it.

SPURS GAME IN THREE MINUTES!!!!!!!! their gonna kick Laker @$$!!!!!!!! damn it, and i can't watch!!! TONY PARKER!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CON!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (And Jo)
Valin nosta Vorinwe!!!!!!

i have absolutely no idea what the freakin hell is wrong w/ Camron. god damn i wanna kill that guy sometimes.

legovanan
isaac's scaring me... he's sounding all depressed and dejected and he won't tell me why.. :;shudder:: itz usually me sounding depressed and him prying it out of me... izzy.. ur depressing me!!!

i'm STILL making connie's present, almost done. she's gonna kill me when she sees it 2mrorow. HAPPY BDAY TOMORROW CON!!!!!!!!!

camron was an @$$hole 2day. i seriously think he PMS's.. seriously, being a b*tch 2 ilke every1 2day, even ashley!!

legovanan
whoa they changed their layout again... this is freaky!!!

i cried today. i cannot believe i cried when the, i hate 2 call them spurs lost today.. that team that lost 2 the lakers out there was not the spurs. i didn't recognize them. where was the team i knew and loved? where was my tony parker who could kick any of the lakers' @$$es??? where was tim duncan, who could hit a shot against anyone?
i'll stop now.
i gave con the story "I Come Too Late" and hopefully, she'll give me some feedback soon!!!

YEAH!!!!!!!! I GOT PAST MY WRITER'S BLOCK 4 FORSAKEN!!! THANx 2 ANDY AND HIS AWESOME POEM, and Susan, 4 her constructive criticism, encouragement, and ideas!!

i'm getting better @ dribbling... con, aren't u proud of me? i still suck though.. hehee

legovanan
well i just finished my 700 word little short story... itz exactly one page typed, SINGLE spaced (izzy) itz rather sad... Connie, if u want i'll send it to u. u die in it though.. don't know if u wanna read it. really sad, this is the summary i put on it:
The years mean nothing to Elves, but swift they past for Men. An Elf rues her ignorance as her mortal friend leaves her forever...

interested anyone?

legovanan
spurs & lakers playing tomorrow... hahaha who's gonna be up 3-0!!
talking 2 a fellow LOTR freak right now... hehehe...

ryan, itz not THAT disgusting!! shut up!!! (don't ask)

Kathleen, call me... i'm really really bored, but i have a death spiel 2 say:

No matter the feat accomplished, the height of valor, in the end, dea th shall snare every one...

opinion ppl?? especially andy & connie

legovanan
movies today!! since we had a minimum day! Van Helsing... the movie wasn't bad, but let's just say the company was better tahn the movie... hehe.. i sat next 2 Kenny... by force...
they made Troy move when i got there, as i was the last 1, and Kenny was like, "NO!!! DON'T DO THIS 2 ME!!!" (that hurt) and no, "Theodred" is not Kenny, and Troy wouldn't stop laughing... it wasn't that bad. Jessica wouldn't stop screamin & almost got us kicked out!!! i refrained from screamin (Ka, aren't u proud of me?!?!) but i like whimpered and Kenny wouldn't stop laughign when i did that... i couldn't resist rubbing it in his face that the Lakers were down 2-0 to the SPURS!!!!! but i promised him it was only once... the movie was pretty good, other than the graphic monsters (of course, i'm not a monster person. @ first, even the Orcs made me cringe, but after a while, i got used 2 it. i still don't like seeing them very much. especially shooting an arrow @ Faramir..) which brings me 2 David Wenham.. he was the COMIC RELIEF of that movie. he was sooo stupidly funny!! he's like the "brains" of the operation, but he doesn't have any common sense. omg, i'm sooo glad camron wasn't there. he'd say, "sounds like SOMEONE i know" @ one point, i was like 2 Kenny, "okay this is what happens when you read too much". he laughed and then i was like, "but then again, i really shouldn't be talking.." and he was like, "yea... i was just gonna say that..." hey, i don't read TAHT much, and besides, i'm proud of it!! jessica wouldn't stop screaming!! we almost got kicked out, the lady's like, "if i have to come up here to talk to you one more time, all of you are going to get kicked out, without a refund. all of you" ah well... such is life (thatz like my new phrase now)
TROY, SEVEN DAYS!! okay i'm gonna say a WEEK, bcuz the former freaks me out!

LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING DVD-17 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FARAMIR!!! ARAGORN!!!!! FRODO!!!!! LEGOLAS!!! GIMLI!!! MERRY!!! DENETHOR!! EOWYN!! ARWEN!!!!!! EOMER!!!! THEODEN!!!! PIPPIN!!!! GANDALF!!!!!! ELROND!! TREEBEARD!!! SAURON!!!! SAM!!!!!! GOLLUM!!! SMEAGOL!! SHELOB!!! (okay not really) STUPID ORCS!!! okay i'll stop now.

i'm not going 2 Houston, really dont' wanna go into detail, but Ryan A really deserves HIGH TEN!! (inside thing) DOUBLE PINKY!! since i'm not going, he's not going, bcuz as he says "if you suffer, i'll suffer with you i'm not going anywhere without you" aww... i don't think "Theodred" is going either. he's like, "Elaine, are you going?" and i'm like, "no... my dad won't let me." and he's like, "okay then i'm not going for sure then." ::Sigh::

legovanan
well the debate meeting was dreary & somewhat depressing.
$800 total

$110 down payment tomorrow
and then the other 2 in payments of a bit over $300...

i don't want my dad 2 have 2 pay for it. i want 2 pay 4 it myself, w/ my savings through 14 yrs of life, and i'm gonna see if i can get a job, playing piano 4 weddings... ask Mr. Booth... hey, if u have skills, why not utilize them???
grr...
"Theodred" sat in front of me @ the meeting.

it was kinda funny though, bcuz Ryan asked how many ppl were going 2 be rooming 2gether and Ms. Simon answered "Four"
and Laila and me looked @ each other, as we were the only 2 girls in the room, other than Simon & Lackpour, and Laila's like, "but there's only me and elaine"
ms. simon was like, "well, unless u want 2 room w/ me and ms. lackpour... but you're probably just gonna get a smaller room"
::Sigh:: nobody needs/wants 2 see Ryan in the shower... jkjk!!! Wes & Joe were givin me weird looks when me and Laila mentioned it...

grr... i wanna go!!!

legovanan
urgh... i'm wanna kill Amanda sometimes...
okay, let's just say there's this guy, hmm.. andy, should i call him hoyt? jkjk. let's say we call him-Theodred. well elaine has kinda amassed some feelings for "theodred", but isn't sure. theodred is a friend of elaine's, not itz not camron, if it were, i wouldn't bother w/ the "theodred" thing. theodred does not have a clue about this stuff, but some ppl have begun 2 get an idea that theodred likes me... 2day, after school, me and amanda were walking out, and he was there, making up a PE run, or whatever those ppl were doing out there, and i'm like, "o no there's 'theodred'" well i didn't say theodred, but u no... and amanda was like, "NAME!!!" (u no, his name) and "i need to tell you something" she runs over, and whispers, "Elaine likes you". and Theodred goes, "REALLY? elaine, is it true??" i freak out, and i'm like, "She's delirious!!! and i'm like, no no no no no no no nooooooooo" and like run away. problem is, i'm gonna c him later 2day 2.... grr... amanda, gonna hurt you.. he did look a little 2 happy when he heard it though.. maybe thatz sign... RYAN, I NEED YOU!!!!

we did the history & spelling tests 2day, both SIMPLE. poor isaac, he wasn't very good @ the history.

con, i'm starting another short story, itzp robably just gonna be like 2 chapters... it will probably seem a bit familiar 2 you... as i am still riding the tide of my melancholy over promotion... itz called "Fate intertwined" 4 now... i needa better title

Ms. Weiss (or however u spell it) from Ayala came 2day 2 our Leadership class 2 talk 2 us about the Ayala ASB/Leadership... it was HIGHLY depressing.... she made us all feel bad 4 not going...

damn troy

the movie Troy however, comes out in SEVEN days!!!!!!!!1 Van Helsing comes out 2morrow. i may go c it w/ some friends, as we have a minimum day 2morrow. NOON

legovanan
i forgot 2 mention! THE MOST AWESOME NEWS!!!!!
certain members of CHJHS Debate, all 8th graders, are invited 2 go 2 HOUSTON, TEXAS (aww, not san antonio) during the summer, June 25-27 to be exact for the NATIONALS!!!!!!! NATIONAL DEBATE!!!! THREE DAYS, IN HOUSTON, W/O PARENTS!!!!!!! DEBATING!!!!!!!
ahh!! i soooo wanna go!!! my dad is happy, but my main problem is finance. i mean, my parents just had 2 pay 4 a trip 2 England, which my dad is still disgruntled over, and i don't want 2 ask them 4 more $$... debate is gonna do alot of fundraising, and there's a mandatory meeting 2morrow night... urgh!!! I WANNA GO!!!!!!

itz also 2 man teams, like HS, and it is my last time 2 debate w/ Ryan... awww.... but he might not be able 2 go!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if he can't, i'll ask Joseph, who me and Chris are fighting over right now

legovanan
i changed my blog name... don't wry... it'll be in Elvish one day... but the title really fits how i feel, and is comprised of my two FAV words.

ppl are sooo unpoetic these days... just bcuz i write a poem 4 a friend, that just happens to be the same sexuality as me does not make me lesbian...

we took the math (Geometry) test 2day... it wasn't that hard. HISTORY 2morrow!!! YEA!!!! ::cheers::

isaac-BLAH
(inside joke)

i'm feeling random and my stomach hurts... i'm experiencing writer's block bcuz really unpoetic ppl are pissing me off... tho my poem got 2 really good reviews:
1.
aw! that's so beautiful! so sad and sweet! I'm sure she loved it! you'll see her though! after school, and on weekends..right? if she's moving...I know that's tough. I've moved alot...it's hard...but so far, I've been able to see all my old friends SOME time! that was beautiful though... I could never write like that...
2. ah, that was so beautiful. so sad. I've got tears in my eyes. Well done, a lovely use of poetry and emotion. perfect!

yea connie, other ppl appreciate my poetry, even when i don't write it 4 them!! yes i know, andy's better

legovanan
okay i'm like crying here, literally. i can't see through my glasses. I just wrote this poem, kinda like scribbling. it really sucks, but i just had to write it. i'm going 2 be revising it over the days.
It's dedicated to one of my dearest friends and I wrote it for her, though it can takes a sort of LOTR theme, as alwayz: Connie, or as i like to call her, Vorinwe.. Her name means "steadfast" and that is what she is, a great friend, who sticks with you. She's not going to Troy, and I'm gonna miss her more than Frodo misses Sam. But like Frodo knows, Sam will one day join him in Valinor and their friendship will never die. Vorinwe and Isilme. Aragorn and Legolas. Legolas and Aragorn. Friend and sister. Connie and Elaine.

My Dearest Friend

Here at last, at the shore of the Sea.
My heart shall grieve.
We have ventured where we never have before.
Journeying far and wide, together.
Yet now, upon this sand
I must take my leave


The fluid mass of grey-green
Reflects in the sunset
Yet none as vivid as the light
The light that lives within in your eyes

The vast expanse, the endless span
Are nothing, none compared to grief
Grief that grows within my heart
Grief of losing you

The day we met, my heart now rues
Not for fear of knowing you
But as our fate was intertwined
I knew, we would come to this bitter end

So well we knew each other
Quirks and habits
Desires and loves
On court or home

We rejoiced on each other’s arrival
Though masqueraded otherwise
Yet in our hearts we knew
This love and friendship grew

All tests and hardships
We faced head on
Together, united strong
Yet in the end, this hardship last
Proves mightier than I can grasp

Here at last, we must take our leave
Through all laughter and tears
Sorrow and fears
We knew this day was coming
Though we tried to put it off
The inevitable, a rendezvous with death

Death to our time
Death to our hope
Death to our love
Death to our camaraderie

Yet hope is kindled
Forever shall thou be
Within my heart
Our memories relived
Laughter rekindled
Tears re-shed

Namarië

mellon nin Vorinwe

legovanan
i OFFICIALLY am NOT speaking 2 andy anymore!!!! i asked him a couple days ago 4 some symbols, animal or celestial, 4 the following
1. soulmates
2. betrayal
3. jealousy

he came up w/ sun/moon 4 soulmates, which is waht i was thinking. Kathleen would know what this is for. betrayal the snake. he made everything sound so poetic!!! I Don't LIKE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!1 and now he wrote a poem 4 the sun/moon and i'm using it, WITH permission. itz AWESOME, like all his poems... grr.... jealousy... grea,t now i'm a MOOCH andy!! I'm GIVIN YA CREDIT!!!

the silent moon rises
looking down on earth
lonely has the body been
since its time of birth

the moon, surrounded by the stars
the tiny aquaintences that laugh
and wink secretly
at each other
and longing is the moon
to be with another...

the night sky broadens
the darkness grows
and the clouds come and cover
as the moon grows in woe

and then, the sun
the majestic god, the skillful hunter
as it drives away
all darkness, all stars, all loneliness
and for that brief moment
as the moon meets the sun
a burst of joy, of happiness
overflows within

the light is shared between them
as they whisper, so silently
their secrets, their smiles

and how beautiful
is their balance, the searching souls
that come together
and melt into one

alas, their meeting is but sudden
their reflections growing faint
slowly both must move apart
as nature forces cruel restraints

once again, in silent blackness
does the moon reside
fill now with only memorie
and bursts of lonely cries

legovanan
WHOA they changed their layout!! ergh, i don't like this new thing. i can't c my other posts. well, CAT6 testing starts 2mrorow and i'm like screwed!! ah well, who gives... itz only my future... and that was bleak anyways. i wanna be a writer and they starve anyways...
andy, u know i love ya, so i'm gonna copy you, ONCE again, not plagiarism, remmeber that. i really need one of these things:
**Summer athletics**
-exercise
-get better at basketball
-swim
-ice skate

**Reading**
-Lord of the Rings: all three books
-The Aenied
-Tess of the D'Urbevilles
-More Tolkien
-The Oddysey
-Pere Goriot
eh, i know there's more

**Movies**
-TROY!!! (10 days!!!!)
-HP 3
-chick flicks
-Van Helsing (next wk)
-more chick flicks w/ romance in them (KATHLEEN!!!)
-LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING (TWENTY MORE DAYS TILL THE SACRED DVD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

***things to do***
-trip to England
-trip to MN
-tentative trip to China
-read
-sleep
-take Health
-play basketball
-enjoy life b4 Troy
-be nicer to my parents
-play more piano
-WRITE, WRITE, WRITE, WRITE
-be nicer to little kids, especially Justine
-improve debating
-refrain from killing Camron

**things to refrain upon**
-reading nothing but Tolkien
-procrastinating
-gaining weight
-becoming lackadaisical on the phone and Internet
-losing touch w/ my awesome CHJHS friends
-losing temper
-snapping @ ppl when i'm pissed
-yell @ Justine
-yell @ mom
-just plain: YELL

**$$**
-Kumon
-wedding piano
-???_

**spending $$**
-LORD OF THE RINGS: RETURN OF THE KING
-LORD OF THE RINGS: RETURN OF THE KING EXTENDED VERSION (even though tahtz like Nov. and KA'll probably get if 4 me. hehe)
-MP3 player
-AND1 Mix Tape show
-Silmarillion, Lays of Beleriand, Book of Lost Tales (basically, History of Middle-Earth)

**Hang out**
-Connie
-Kathleen, of course
-Andy
-Amanda
-Isaac...
-Camron
-Roshi
-Ryan
-Andres
-Diana
-Maria
-Whitney & other Miners
-if i 4got ya, very sorry

**overall**
-WRITE
-HOLD TEMPER

legovanan
i have just heard the most OUTRAGEOUS statement EVER: connie thinks she's better than me, ELAINE TENG, Isilmë Elentari, at Tolkien!!!!!! she's crazy

i'm listening to Celtic music. so wonderful... bagpipes, fiddles, Celtic language... so beautiful...

gotta get this stupid essay done!!!

legovanan
WHO WON TODAY?!??!!? SPURS WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT WAS IT?!?/1 BY LIKE 10?/!?!?!?!!!!!!!! OOOO!!!!!!!! WHO'S BETTER NOW?!?!???! BIOTCH!!!!!!! (eddie...)

Kathleen, too many inspirational talks 2day okay?

legovanan
got this off Andy's blog. gives me something 2 do. Spurs & Lakers play in 24 minutes!!
____ STOP _____
[x] they call me: elaine
[x] also: smart@$$
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: 3:07 AM, March 22, 1990
[x] age: what do u think
[x] status: in melancholy... (or as u can also say, single)
[x] occupation: student, poet, dreamer, Tolkien lover
[x] nationality: Chinese! (no camron, that doesn't make me Anti-US)
[x] best buds: Kathleen, Connie, Isaac, Andy
_______REWIND_______
[x] most memorable memory: isn't that kind of redundant? hmm... in the Claremont debate last month, the public when I told Daniel off...
[x] worst memory: when i realized who i am... (i like that andy) when I exited the movie theater to Return of the King and realized, there is no more
[x] first word uttered: Chinese-ba ba. English-stop (don't ask)
[x] first friend ever: Kathleen!!! i should change that 2 "best friend ever"
_______FAST FORWARD_______
[x] college: this should say "dream college" i'm probably not gonna get in2 any of these: Harvard, Radcliffe, Stanford, Brown, Yale, Princeton... Ivy Leagues...
[x] occupation: whatever I drift to...
my parents think Lawyer, as writers don't get anything 2 eat...
[x] mobile: PHONE!
[x] future residence: cardboard box outside Albertsons... in my dreams, Europe
[x] wedding: by the Sea...
[x] children: i wish... twin girls... and then a boy a yr or 2 younger... i have names, but only Kathleen knows... but hey! i'll give them all Elvish middle names...
[x] looking forward to: love
[x] NOT looking forward to: promotion. JR high has 2 end...
_______PLAY______
[x] feeling: melancholy
[x] listening: "The End of All Things" off Lord of the Rings: Return of the King Soundtrack. hey, that fits. thatz how i feel
[x] talking to: myself
[x] doing: your mom! okay thatz just really wrong coming from me... i would say, this survey
[x] thinking of: how I'm going to have my main character die... and a few friends, Connie, Andy, Camron
[x] craving: for chocolate (Good one andy) eh, Middle-Earth
[x] missing: my true love; Middle-Earth
[x] hating: society
_______FAVORITES_______
[x] song: too many... "My Immortal" Evanescense. "Concrete Angel" Martina McBride. "Twilight and Shadow" LOTR. "The Grey Havens" LotR.
[x] tv show: Everwood. Smallville. ER. Streetball.
[x] channel: WB & TNT
[x] movie: The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King
[x] store: Borders, not that I really care for shopping
[x] mall: Brea, not that I really care
[x] hang out spot: my mind... pathetic.
[x] actor: lookswise-Orlando Bloom. Acting-wise: Johnny Depp; Viggo Mortensen
[x] actress: eh... hmm... i'll say Julia Stiles for now. i don't really know
[x] food: fast
[x] character: Faramir
[x] book: "The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King"
_______LOVE_______
[x] love is: cruel
[x] best love song: too many. all my fav songs are sappy love songs. right about now, the only song i can think of is "How Do I Live" becuz that was just in the rally
[x] is it possible to be in love with more than one person @ the same time: "The heart has infinite room" (Shmi Skywalker)
[x] when love hurts you: i wish i could answer like andy: "you embrace it" but i say, hide from it
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: there is attraction, that can lead to love
_______OPPOSITES ATTRACT_______ or do they?
[x] turn ons: nice eyes, sweet smile, sense of humor, understands me, sweet talks, knows when to turn humor on and off
[x] turn offs: smoking. thinks their better than everyone else. won't stop hiding who they are from you. piercings. long hair
[x] does your parent`s opinion on your bf/gf matter to you: screw that. as long as i'm not gonna marry them, who cares?
[x] what kinda hair style: i really don't like long hair.
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you: too many. makes me feel accepted & loved. do something that only i would know
[x] where do you go to meet new people: i don't like new people. i just don't like people.. no... school
[x] are you the type of person to holla and ask for numbers: i say "holla" but don't ask 4 the #
________PICKY PICKY_______ ////
[x] dog or cat: dog
[x] short or long hair: please, SHORT
[x] innie or outie: huh? i'll say innie
[x] sunshine or rain: rain on Fridays so we don't have to run
[x] moon or sun: moon, definitely. stars too. (kathleen, my story)
[x] basketball or football: duh!! BASKETBALL!!!
[x] righty or lefty: right!
[x] hugs or kisses: both
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] tv or radio: TV
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: starbucks, as i've never had Jamba Juice
[x] mc donalds or burger king: McDonalds
[x] summer or winter: neither, spring
[x] written letters or e-mails: depends on the situation. if it's nothing pressing, then email. if it's really personal, definitely written
[x] playstation or nintendo: neither. really don't care
[x] disney or nickelodeon: disney
[x] car or motorcycle: car
[x] house party or club: house parties are fun
[x] sing or dance: sing
[x] freak or slow dance: hehe.. can i say both?
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: aim
[x] google or ask jeeves: google
_______MISCELLANOUS_______
[x] can you swim: yep, although i havent in awhile
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment: looking into the mirror
[x] whats under your bed: nothing, unless something fell and landed there
[x] what are you scared of: not being loved, failing, snakes
[x] what is your greatest accomplishment: i'm sure i'll have one someday...
[x] what kinda roof is over your head: one that's not leaky
[x] do you like tomatoes: they're good, specially with salads
[x] internet connection: dial up...sad (good answers andy)
[x] how many TVs in the house: 1
[x] how many phones: 4
[x] how many residents: 2
[x] how many DVDs do you have: like 20
[x] last doctor visit: llllooonnng time ago
[x] last phone call: just got off w/ Camron
[x] last IM: talking to Kathleen right now

ooo spurs game in ONE minute

legovanan
last debate competition 2day!!!! only three rounds AND Townsend wasn't there ;(
three topics:
1. This House would make it illegal to burn the American flag. (Prop)
2. The government should have access to library records. (Prop)
3. Movies that portray graphic violence should be rated NC-17. (Opp)

we were undefeated, once again, and this time, we WERE THE TOP, #1 TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANYON HILLS TAL!!!!!
thatz Lee, Teng, Agsalud!!!!!!!
JOSEPH GOT THE GAVEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so proud of him!!!! tho he used my notes!!!! he says he's gonna saw off a part of it and give it 2 me...
i got 23rd place 4 speaker... ah well, @ least i placed!! and Daniel, don't even start, u got 30th once!!!!!1 yea, remmeber, when i got 2nd?!??!

but now i'm all depressed. yesterday was our last rally, today our last debate... ::sigh:: i'm gonna write anotherp oem about this. connie already has a good one... i cant' find it tho. itz good. (shh con, don't start again) my poem is gonna be about it, but it can tie in 2 LOTR, once again... don't ask. probably Sam & Frodo. CON!!! NO STEALING IDEAS!!!