legovanan
just watched Usher's "Confessions" Video... so sad!!! as much as i love that song though, they OVERPLAY it!! i'm telling u. me and shilpa are like gonna make a chart on how many times, just going 2 Troy and back, they play that song, and Burn, and even "Yeah". i mean, Usher never gets old, but it would be nice 2 hear something else. at this rate, my DAD could sing it!!! and thatz just SCARY

yea!! Kathleen liked my Hector poem!! though she said I made Hector too perfect. all i gotta say is, "You don't talk trash about the dead guy, okay?"

legovanan
this is the name acronym thing off sana's site, but i just HAD 2 post whitney's!

W	Weird
H	Happy
I	Innocent
T	Tasty
N	Neglected
E	Earthy
Y	Yucky

Name / Username:

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

YUCKY!!!!!1 NEGLECTEd!!!

legovanan
added ryan to links.

i know that u all OFFICIALLY realize that i'm BEYOND crazy (u've known taht i'm crazy already 4 a long time), but i must appeal, WHATZ WRONG w/ WRITING A POEM IN TRIBUTE OF HECTOR?!

picnic was alot of fun 2day... stupid Olivia.. i'm gonna get her back sooooooo BADLY! we had water balloon toss and she got me full on the face twice, and then poured freezing ice water on my back!!! i'm gonna get taht girl..

working on another poem... not sure what it's gonna be. i'm thinking of one about Paris. might be a hate poem. (i know i'm insane) i think it might be called 'Ilios' Bane' (get it con, Isildur's Bane) or 'Bane of Troy'.. i dunno. don't feel up 2 it. Hector was ez 2 write bcuz i actually wanted 2, and he's awesome...

legovanan
well, i just finished a poem.. u ppl are gonna think me insane. it's for Hector, but any quote i may have used, is from the Iliad. any references are all from Homer originally, though it was inspired by Eric Bana's brilliant performance. skip this if u think i'm insane, and if u have absolutely no knowledge of Troy.

Lament for the Fallen:
Mighty Hector

Sing, o blessed one
Tell the tale of Troy, of Priam's glorious son
The name shall live forevermore, resonating in eternity
Hector, protector, pride of Dardanus

Your brother's folly cursed Illium
Born under a dark sign
He found his way back
Under your guard, your shield

Gods and men fight, for power, splendor
Peleus' son, for name, for honor
Glory, etched in legends
Atreus' younger, fair Helen was his prize
But you, o illustrious one
All that was dear to your heart

Alas, Pergamus' high walls
Doomed, with your mighty prince
Andromache, lament is your toll
Alone, without child or love, sorrow falls

Lo! You knew naught of the esquire
Yet doomed you were when that ill-fated spear
Flew from your magnificent hand
Embedded in Patroclus; Fate has condemned

O Hector! Priam's finest son
Dauntless defender of Ilios
Troy's delight, savior in dark times
Without a thought of shameful retreat

You left Dardanus' luckless walls
A father, Priam never grieved more
Hecabe, Helen, your brothers mourn
Widowed Andromache, doomed child

Astyanax, fate sealed with his father
Your city ruined before you were grown
Flung off those dear walls, biting the dust
Some Achaean furious that Hector slew
A brother, a father, a son
You cannot avenge them.

Alas, illustrious Hector, your fall
Sealed the fate of your doomed city
Loved by the gods, it wasn't enough
Troy, living only now in songs of yore
Hector, your great name buried in lore

Eternity...

legovanan
::sigh:: okay i'm going to be serious for once.

i know it's a bit early to say this, or form any lasting opinions, but i really don't want to go to Troy!!! i mean, i've made a few friends, but their all really girly, gossiping about shopping and "lip gloss" (SHILPA) or their freakishly scary, like that kid i just posted about. i mean, during break, i always wish connie was there, and i get all depressed and nostalgic bcuz i remember the times at lunch playing bball, screaming "ASSIST" and "JUMP!!!!" and talking trash about Sean and Siemaf when they were pissing us off, and of course, there is my favorite:
"HEY BEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
i mean, when all the girls gang up on me, and go, "HOW can u NOT know the difference between Abercrombie and Abercrombie and Fitch?" i'm like screaming, "CONNIE!!!!!! WHY DID U ABANDON ME TO SUCH A CRUEL FATE?!?!?!? ISAAC!!! WHERE ARE YOU?!?!?!"
and i haven't talked to Con or Isaac, or Andres, or even Roshi, alot lately. Con's always off somewhere, usually basketball, and when i catch her on, itz basically a few words, and then she's gone. i mean, if it's like this in the summer, when memories are still fresh in our minds, then what will it be like with my old friends when school starts, and our schedules are even tighter, and we don't have classes, rallies, Leadership, debate, basketball, lunch, or dances together. will we still have anything to talk about? i mean calling each other "headless chickens" and clamoring about the One Ring and Elves will only get u so far.
ai, where's whitney?
i'm probably just being a really paranoid freak right now, overanalyzing and worrying about the future. i should just take it as it comes.
i dunno.. hopefully it'll get better next week when Camron comes to summer school. then i'll have someone to talk to. i mean, there's a bunch of ppl going 2 Troy that are from CH, like 11, but Camron's the only one that i can really talk to, or hang out w/. i mean Ashley's cool, and i love her, but we just don't have that "connection" or whatever. we hung out, but were never REALLY REALLY close.
i'll shut up now... i should go listen to LotR music or something.

legovanan

"You want me to look upon your army and tremble? Well I see them. I see fifty thousand men brought here to fight for one man's greed."
In Eric Bana's voice, that sounds sooooooooo awesome!!!!

omg in my summer school class, there's this kid that SERIOUSLY freaks out every1 who looks at him. i liken him to one of those ppl in one of those old-time monster movies, who stands at the top of an old, haunted castle, with the moonlight shining, and cackling "MAUAHAHAHAHAHA! AHAAHAHAAMAAUAHAHAA" really scary. i think i'm the only one who talks to him.
but... he's a bit of a LotR freak too. i discovered this in a weird way.
okay i was REALLY bored, and i was just sitting there, drawing all over my paper, and i was like,
"Three rings for the Elven-king under the sky.
Seven for the dwarf lords in their halls of stone."

and i was just about say the next line, and i hear this voice, "Nine for the mortal men doomed to die." and i look up, and itz this kid, and i'm like WHOA and i keep going, "One for the Dark Lord on his dark throne."
he goes, "In the land of Mordor."
me: "Where the shadows lie."
him "One Ring to rule them all."
me: "One Ring to find them all."
him: "One ring to bring them all"
me: "and in the darkness bind them."
him: "In the land of Mordor"
me: "Where the shadows lie..."

by this time, the other 2 ppl in my group looked like they wanted to run for their lives...

well, camron'll be @ summer school next wk! i'll have someone to annoy!!!!!
finishing quote, again by Hector:
"All my life I've lived by a code. Honor the gods, love your woman, and defend your country. Troy is mother to us all, fight for her!"

legovanan
well, since there was MUCH controversy about me posting that Brad Pitt pic! eesh!! i don't like him! i just stumbled on that pic and i thought he looked good. FINE! here's a Hector pic!!!


searching for Paris pics.. i have alot, but their hard 2 post...

health is halfway over 2morrow!!!! then i get 2 sleep in on friday!!!!!1

legovanan
u know when u go looking for one thing and u find another? thatz waht i did. i was searching, well this is my search subject:
"Eric Bana as Hector", and it turned up 1 pg of CRAP. i've seen better pics elsewhere, so i typed in "Orlando Bloom and Eric Bana", but all i got were Orlando pics, most of which i've seen b4. so i just typed in "Eric Bana", and i dont' find any good pics of him, as i only think he looks good as Hector. but i DId find this good pic, though it doesn't even go under that topic:

legovanan
well, summer school passed by quickly today. we were supposed to have a speaker, but they flaked out on us AGAIN. they postponed last wk, and this time they just didn't show. hey! what do u expect from a bunch of druggies? so instead, we watched "Patch Adams". great movie. i'd seen it b4, but that was yrs ago, so it was great to refresh my memory. Robin Williams.. sad movie though.

i was reading up on Eric Bana. typical of me eh? well, here's quote by him thatz rather funny. reminds me a bit of Kathleen... (i think she'll find that offensive) treating me that way at least, like i don't know how 2 do anything!! well @ least, anything that would be taught in home ec. here's the quote:

"I already loved Orlando like a little brother before we started shooting. We did spend five months together in Morocco during "Black Hawk Down". And you have to take care of Orlando. He doesn't even know how to make coffee. (Starts imitating Orlando's voice) Do you want coffee, Eric? How is it done again? Do you put the coffee in the water? Or in the filter? Can you make the coffee, Eric?"

wait, how DO u make coffee? this is why God invented Starbucks.. (my mom would be lecturing me if she heard that) hold on, wait, wait wait, itz the coffee in the FILTER, right? bcuz thatz what the filter's for. ah well, i'll leave it to Starbucks. and if i ever want coffee, i'll just ask Kathleen for some.

legovanan
weird stuff on my blog yesterday.. hope more ppl post on the chatter so that crap will wash away, with the currents of the Sea... jkjk

came back from Sana's house. watched TROY!!!! again!!! yea!!!! yes andy, i know you think it's a horrible movie, but even a horrible, unhistorical movie that has such a good performance of Hector by Eric Bana deserves applause.
if i had it my way, that boy would get an Oscar 4 that performance. he was every bit of Hector one could every imagine by reading the books. he was even better than Homer's Hector...
Orlando Bloom ::sigh:: he looked hot, but was horrible in that movie. i'm sry!!!! i jsut HAD 2 say that. a few quotes by him:
"Men will hunt us, the gods will curse us, but I will love you, until the day they burn my body..."

i think thatz the one quote every1 puts on all those Orlando Bloom graphics...
sigh. if only the school could be like the movie. (andy, i know u want it 2 "BURN!!!"

sana and her ENDLESS stream of questions!!! at the beginning of the movie, she asks me questions about the stuff @ the end! it's like, "WAIT TILL WE GET THERE!!!!!!!!!" and she's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE w/ names!!!!! but yea, she's an awesome monkey caller! love ya sana!

VORINWE, GET YOUR @$$ ONLIne!!

legovanan
went to the movies today. saw Garfield (my uncle insisted for some odd reason) surprisingly good, rather funny too. i think we were the oldest ppl there. everyone was like under the age of 10. made me feel like a little kid again, but really old @ the same time.

then movie hopped to Chronicles of Riddick. hey, there wasn't anything good on that i hadn't seen yet. i watched the last 1.5 hrs of it. good movie, if all u care about is ppl knocking the crap out of one another and Vin Diesel's muscles. it was like, a combination of Star Wars/Star Trek, with all the flying starcraft and planets, and the costume design was like Lord of the Rings, and the one old lady who's an "Elemental" or something is like a total ripoff of Galadriel combined with Gandalf. kinda scary combo actually.

can't wait for Spiderman 2. there's like no good movies coming out anymore, especially since there's no more LotR... ::sniff:: tear:: :(

oo! SPEAKING OF LOTR!!!!
MY UNCLE (who loves 2 spoil me. i think he's the only one, so yea) GOT ME LOTR: ROTK!!!!! AH!!!!!!!! gotta watch it!! ahhh!!!!!!! FRODO!! FARAMIR! LEGOLAS!!! ARAGORN!!!! GANDALF!!! EOWYN!! ARWEN!!!! SHADOWFAX!!!!! DENETHOR!!!! SAM!!! PIPPIN!! MERRY!!!!! EVEN NAZGUL!! THEODEN!!
shutting up

i'm starting this quote of day thing again:
Sometimes it is those who love us that hurt us the most.

actually, i just made that up. i put that in my story like 10 chapters ago. tell me what u think.
now here's a movie quote
"What we do in life, echoes in eternity" (Maximus-Gladiator)

legovanan
got YET ANOTHER one of these off andy's site. we are sooo pathetic, and i'm starving!

[[---------------------------BASIC iNFO----------------------------]]
[x] whats your name? u know, if u didn't know my name, why the hell would u be on my blog?! for now, u can call me: LOTR freak
[x] how old? ANCIENT. i am an Elf from the Third Age. 14
[x] siblings? nope, unless u count my Elven kin
[x] their ages: would u like that in Elven years or the disgustingly fleeting time of you pathetic mortals?
[x] gender: female
[x] birthday: back in the Second Age... March 22
[x] nationality: chinese
[x] Birthplace: San Francisco (please, no jokes about that)
[x] Location: of what? Ithilien, where fair Elves and Gondorians dwell. I dwelt also in Rivendell, fair haven of all, for a time...
[x] Eye Color: brown/black
[x] Hair Color: well, it's supposed to be black, but it's like 10 different shades, spanning from ebony to almost blonde. (that's where i get it)
[x] Righty or Lefty: Right
[x] Zodiac Sign: Aries
[x] Innie or Outtie: innie, i suppose.. i really don't get that question
[x] i daydream about: wait? u mean it's all a dream! I KNEW IT! it's all a conspiracy against me! i do not ::gasp:: DREAM about Middle-Earth, i live there!
[x] tall or short: well, i am rather short, for an Elf, yet amongst these mortals I am considered relatively tall.
[x] school: i miss Canyon Hills, but i doubt i will Troy.

[[-----------------DESCRIBE------------------]]
[x] The shoes you wore today: i haven't worn any yet
[x] Your height: 5"8 and one half
[x] Your fears: snakes (andres & kenny would know) failing (hermione granger..) not being loved, and ::gasp:: someone telling me that fair Endor ceases to live, yet forevermore in my memory shall dwell.

[[-----------------WHAT IS------------------]]
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: well, it's a tie between "oic" and "namarie"
[x] Your thoughts when you first wake up: my stomach hurts, and i gotta read more of Fellowship
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: their eyes
[x] Your best physical feature: i'll leave that for you to decide
[x] Your bedtime: Elves do not sleep as mortals do... we merely descend into a wandering dream...
but yae. 10 PM
[x] Your most missed memory: watching Frodo sail away to the Valinor for the first time...
no, more like playing bball with Con and going "ASSIST!!"

[[-----------------YOU PREFER------------------]]
[x] Pepsi or coke: both, and like andy said, why is this ALWAYS the 1st question of this section?!
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds
[x] Single or group dates: "I'd go on single dates the first couple times, and when I've established a firm relationship with my significant other, we'll go on group dates!" good answer andy, and if i've ever been on either of those dates, i would tell u.
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: as long as I get the caffeine
[x] tennis shoes or flip flops: barefoot thank u.
[x] sports or mall: sports!!!! the mall=BLEH
[x] the color black or white: white. the shadow shall not overcome those who live in the light.

[[-----------------DO YOU------------------]]
[x] Smoke: i resent that! We, the Firstborn, do not engage in the disgusting activities of the mortals-pipeweed! those infernal halflings.
[x] Cuss: i admit it...
[x] Take a shower everyday?: yes! i must stay clean! part of Elven hygiene u know
[x] Have a crush(es): yes...
[x] Who are they: wouldn't u like to know?
[x] Think you've been in love?: if i knew what love was, i would tell u.
[x] Want to go to college: do u mean that absurd human form of education? we teach about the trees, the wind, and the stars, not business and medicine, though Lord Elrond could give u an excellent course in the healing arts.
[x] Want to get married: yes..
[x] lie: down, yes. i'm very tired.
[x] given someone a bath: other than myself?
[x] cry during a flick: i cry in practically every flick. Elves are known to be very emotional, you know.

[[-----------------WOULD YOU------------------]]
[x] bungee jump: sure! that sounds fun!
[x] skinny dipp: depends on who I'm doing it with ;)
[x] cry to get out of trouble: no.. it gets me into more trouble.
[x] cut your own hair: me? w/ scissors??? NO
[x] stalk anyone: i don't know waht your talking about!!! ::looks outraged::
[x] skip school: hell no
[x] hook up w/ a friend: no comment
[x] eat shit for a million dollars: phst, i scorn the human value.
but yes, i would.

[[------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------]]
[x] Go to the mall: nope
[x] Eaten sushi: nope
[x] Been on stage: yes, well, i wouldn't call it a stage @ promotion
[x] Made homemade cookies: me, anywhere near a stove, scariness
[x] Been in love: again, if i knew what love was, i would tell u.
[x] Dyed your hair: i resent that! Elves need not the inferior dye of humans.
i wouldn't dye my hair, bcuz i have this huge theory about taking pride in your natural color or whatever.
[x] Stolen anything: i don't think...

[[-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------]]
[x] Flown on a plane: no... like andy said, i swim to china.
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: why would i do that?!
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yea... never want to do it again...
[x] Cried during a Movie?: too many. every time i see the tears in Faramir's eyes, and i see Frodo sailing the grey ship, across teh Sundering Seas, into the bliss of Valinor
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: hot? no, adorable-yes.
[x] Had an imaginary friend: Elves are NOT imaginary!
[x] Cut your hair: no... my hair would be like Luthien's if i didn't!
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: hell no
[x] Played a game that required removal of clothing?: why? no one would want to see that. actually, they'd be blinded.
[x] Been caught "doing something": Yeah- one time my dad opened the door, and i was doing... HOMEWORK! (nice one andy)
[x] Been called a tease: ??
[x] Shoplifted: nope

[[-----------------------OPPOSITE SEX--------------------------]]
[x] notice first? already asked, but the eyes and the hair
[x] have a BF/GF? yea... Legolas, Prince of the Woodland Realm. no...
[x] ever rejected someone: surprisingly-yes
[x] how many ppl of the opposite sex is in your buddy list on AIM: A LOT
[x] ever been kissed?: no... ::looks remorseful::
[x] Best eye color: hazel
[x] Best hair color: well, i don't relaly care, but i'd say brown. i don't like guys that dye their hair though
[x] Short or long hair: short!! i have a thing against long hair
[x] Best height: don't care. when your tall, u get used 2 guys being shorter tahn u.
[x] Best first date location: i wouldn't know.
[x] Best first kiss location: ahh- we drive up to a cliff over a beach; it had been raining, but as soon as we get out the car, the rain stops. And then the night sky clears, with a sliver of moon and lots of stars. The waves wil be crashing below us, and the breeze will blow through our hair... and... yeah, you get the idea... (nice one andy, i'm too lazy 2 type my own)
[x] turn ons: caring, witty, likes me for who i am not what i can give them, well-rounded in Elven lore.
[x] turn offs: smoking, piercings, tattoos, complete disrespect for Elvenkind (i said COMPLETE) egotistical

[[-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------]]
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: like... 6
[x] Number of computers you have: 3
[x] Number of piercings: 0
[x] Number of tattoos: 0
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: i'm not conceited enough to check
[x] Number of scars on my body: many, the battles i've been through... damn Orcs.
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: too many

[[----------------FAVORITES------------------]]
[x] Shampoo: Pantene Pro V
[x] Fav Color(s): white and blue, the colors of the Sea. the white foam laces the gentle blue waves as they caress the eastern shores... the Sundering Seas that keep me away from my beloved kin, and prevent me from looking upon the light of the Trees, and Lady Varda, Elbereth.
[x] Day/Night: night :;mischievous grin::
[x] Summer/Winter: spring
[x] Fave Cartoon Character: um... not a big cartoon fan.
[x] Fave Food: lembas bread, gifted to me by our dear Lady Galadriel
[x] Fave Movies: the Lord of the Rings: the Fellowship of the Ring; the Lord of the Rings: the Two Towers; the Lord of the Rings: the Return of the King
[x] Fave sport: basketball!
[x] word: namarie
[x] ice cream flavor: chocolate, need i say more?
[x] holiday: christmas! gimme gimme gimme!
[x] furniture: the bed
[x] number: 7
[x] fast food: burgers
[x] school subject: history, i master the lore of my kind, and English, the art of words is gifted to the Firstborn. O Illuvatar.

okay, as u can see, i was REALLY bored

legovanan
found this quote when in a poem:

"Thoughts and dreams of joy are just to stall the grief,"

so sad, yet so true... at times

i am soooooo BORED

reading Fellowship

legovanan
my blood pressure is probably up, and my pulse is racing, and i feel tired.
sounds like side effects of drugs? (okay health is REALLY getting to me)
actually, NO
i was just having a VERY interesting (as sana would put it) convo w/ Connie... grrr.. 16 pages on Microsoft Word, i saved it.

i think that woman is trying 2 kill me. if i EVER die from high blood pressure, a heart attack, or any CARDIAC (happy con?) disease, i'll know where it came from:
CONNIE

legovanan
well.. summer school's over 4 the week! yea! today wasn't THAT bad, but it wasn't "fun" either...

re-reading Fellowship of the Ring right now. it's sooooo GOOD. (not that i didn't know that before) also starting chapter 24 of my story. it's almost done.

but most of all, i am going to SLEEP!!!!!!!!!

well, i was sitting in McDonalds today, and this thought crossed my mind. u know what's sad, yet ironic?
our culture keeps teaching about not caring what others think, and not judging by appearance, but we also put sooo much emphasis on celebrities, who have to care what others think and almost ALWAYS must have a "beautiful" exterior, bcuz that's all we see, and that's what we judge them by...

that probably didn't even make sense

legovanan
got this off sana:

How to make a Isilmë_Elentari

Ingredients: 3 parts friendliness 1 part crazyiness 1 part joy

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Top it off with a sprinkle of curiosity and enjoy!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

legovanan
dhahahahahaa
puahahhahhaaha
ahahahahahahhaa
hehehehehehehehehehhe
gheheehehehehhe
mauhhahahaahhaa
haahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaa
HA!

what was the score??? 87-100!!!!!! EIGHTY-SEVEN-ONE HUNDRED!!!! THIRTEEN POINTS!!!!!!
ah well, not as bad as the spurs beat them last yr. that was ENTERTAINMENT. last yr it was 82-110. 28 POINTS!!1 i still have that game on tape.

as camron says, "How about them Lakers?"
except this time, I GET BRAGGING RIGHTS

sry con and whit, please forgive me. just remember this, i'm not going 2 Ayala!

legovanan
omg, just been to andres's site. i LOVE his expertise, u know on xangas there's a part 4 info that says "expertise" this made my day:

Expertise: growing and selling oranges. One day I'll meet both Camron and Roshi on the street, and they'll take one look at me and ask, "How did you get so rich?" And I'll answer, "You know in 8th grade when you would always tell me to go sell my oranges? Well I took your advice and now i am rolling in dough!" Camron will say, "Come on Andres, my buddy, lend some money to your old Cuban pal." And Roshi will say, "Please dawg... hook a brother up will some green, BITCHES!" Do you know what I will do? I will laugh and give Camron a penny and I'll give Roshi a hotdog...

i gotta tell camron this

legovanan
well, i finished the Rivendell poem, though i don't believe it's very polished or well-written. it's just somethign i threw together... Con, i want comments. it kinda goes along w/ my Gondor & Middle-Earth poems that i wrote a while ago. remmeber them?


Lament for Imladris

A place my eyes shall never see
If only my dreams were true
Then there you would be
Beneath the ageless trees

My heart yearns evermore
to look upon thee
Yet I shall only venture
in your vestige in my dreams

Rivendell, fair haven to all
Weary of their journey
Sweet fragrance wafts
Renowned smiths craft

Alas, no matter how real the dream,
It is but a dream
Never to hear the sweet song of the Quendi
The aroma never to grace me

Imladris, Imladris
I shall never see you
Sweet rooftops amongst trees
Blowing in the summer breeze

Ai, Imladris, home of Peredhil
Mighty among both Elves and Men
The soaring canopies shield you
Unmarred by evil


Alas, these eyes shall not look upon thee
These eyes shall never see the fragrant gardens
Loud-flowing Bruinen shimmering in the distance
These eyes shall never see—Imladris, fair Rivendell
Lost you are to me

legovanan
grrr. summer school didn't get much better, and that guy behind Shilpa still keeps staring @ me.
our speaker today got canceled, so yea, it was REALLY BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wish camron were in my class. then i would have someone to talk to, and he would sit right behind me too, bcuz it would be alphabetical. i mean, Shilpa's cool, but she sits on the other side of the room, DIRECTLY across, and no offense to her, i mean, itz great getting to know her better, but i would prefer Camron, just bcuz we hang out usually and know each other better.

i was sooooo bored today taht i wrote a poem for Imladris. well, i wrote a part like last wk, and today i wrote like 3 stanzas in class. i'm gonna put them 2gether and edit it and then put it on here.

grrrrrr CONNIE GET ON!!!!!!!!!!

whitney, connie-we're gonna go see Spiderman 2 together! and anyone else that wants to come along (MONKEY CALLER)

legovanan
grrrrrrrr summer school is soooooo BORING!!!!!!! and it's TIRING AND TEDIOUS!!! I only wish that we didn't have to get up that early!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Shilpa and me had WAY 2 much fun on the car. i was ACTUALLY playing NINTENDO!!!!!!! i barely got past the 1st level... and she kept jinxing and making fun of me!!!!!!!
she's like, "your going to die," and right @ that instance, i DIED!!!!

nice spelling connie!! it's ALL SO CORRECT!!!!!

::yawn:: damn Troy

legovanan
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! summer school tomorrow!!!

i mean, i don't mind, as no hw has SERIOUSLY bored me!!!!! i'm sitting here, and i'm like, "GOD I'M BORED!!!!!!!(whoops gosh-andy) IS THERE NOTHING TO DO?!?!?!? KALMAR!!!!!!!" yes whitney, i miss Kalmar's work!!!

connie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE ART THOU?!/!?! (see at least i get it right) in Elvish that would be:
yassen carmelye

actually, that's very inaccurate... grrrr.... and i hate this stupid formatting thing. i can't put the appropriate accents on it, or else it turns out really weird

i miss school already!! well, i don't miss school, i miss Canyon Hills. we were driving past it today, as we always do @ least twice a day, and i saw the hill where we run XC, and i was like, "OMG. i'm never going to run up that hill again" and i was SAD. CONNIE!!! I ACTUALLY MISSED RUNNING!!!!! THAT JUST SHOWS YOU HOW CRAZY I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN? ME AND RUNNING??????

legovanan
wow... yesterday passed by so quickly...

still in a state of shock-I GOT THE SILVER COYOTE!!!!!
me and ashley shared the female one, 1st time in CHJH history!! and Jake Cannon (much 2 Ryan's dismay) got it 4 guy! i thought it would be Reyes, but yea..
it was soooo awesome!!!!!!!

andy & kathleen came... i saw Connie, Alex, Diana, Sana, and all these other ppl in DRESSES & SKIRTS!!~ mauhahahaaha and i got pics!!!

andy & kathleen both came and afterwards, we saw HP 3. kinda weird. not as good as the 1st two, but i think it's bcuz of how the story was written. it's a great story, but everything is focused on the climax, in the Shrieking Shack, that it's hard to make it into a movie, bcuz the movie has to save like an hr just 4 that part, so they have 2 cut out all the details in the other parts, which make it such an interesting place. and the acting was rushed & rather fake in my opinion. Dan Rad was fffiinnneee though!!!

afterwards, went to beach party. me and ryan stayed in the water practically the entire time, unlike OTHER ppl. it was awesome. ryan and amanda wouldn't stop gossiping and pairing ppl up on the ride home. i was like, "SHUT UP!!"

legovanan
i bear in mind the words of Gandalf the White as he left the hither shore of Middle-Earth:
"I will not say, do not weep, for not all tears are an evil."

legovanan
got this off reyes's site... now i wish i got to know him better, though i think after the 4th grade, me and him were rivals & he didn't like me very much. this is a COMPLETE waste of time, but takes my mind off unpleasant things

:: BASICS ::

01. Full Birth Name: Elessa Teng (damn i hate that name. i don't care how close to Elessar it is)
02. Hair Color: well.. itz supposed to be black, but itz like ten different colors. around the dark brown 2 black area.
03. Eye Color: see above
04. Height Currently: 5'8 and one half
05. Glasses/Contacts: both, more or less. went to optometrist 2day, gonna wear contacts again
06. Birthdate: March 22, 3:07 AM
07. Sign: Aries, suits me
08. Current Age: 14
09. Siblings: nope
10. Sibling's Age: see above
11. Location: most unfortunately, i am located physically in Chino Hills, a most pleasant suburb where industrialization is taking over. spiritually and mentally however, i wander in Middle-Earth, land of noble Gondorians, peaceful Halflings, fierce Rohirrim, elegant Elves, crafty Dwarves, and.. i'll shut up now
12. Any Piercings: i have like a vendetta against piercings & tattoos

:: SOCIAL LIFE ::

01. Best Friends: kathleen, isaac, connie, andy
02. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: alas, no. "those who can't wed, plan" (J. Lo, the Wedding Planner) or in my version, "those who don't date, advise!)
03. Current Crush: i'll leave u 2 figure taht out. can never have him, so yea
04. Hobbies: writing, poetry, singing, listening 2 depressing music, being depressed and spouting poetry from it, playing basketball & piano, staring @ Orlando Bloom, watching movies, doing anything affiliated with the Lord of the Rings or any other Tolkien work that is related to Middle-Earth
05. Timely Or Always Late: in between, more timely than late though
06. Do You Have A Job: being obsessed with Middle-Earth
07. Do You Like Being Around People: depends on the ppl.

:: STUFF ::

01. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: every time, i'm sorry to say
02. Have You Ever Cried Over Someone of the Opposite Sex: name a day, any day
03. Is There A Certain "Type" Of Person U Go After: well, i try to keep the door open. ppl accuse me of liking "white guys" but i oppose. physically, they must have nice eyes. personality-wise: must like me for who i am, not what i am. sense of humor, sensitive
04. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: yes.. i hate myself for it
05. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: trying not 2 think about it.
06. Do You Want Kids: 2 girls and a boy. in a perfect world, the girls would be twins, but u know, thatz one in a few hundred. the boy should be like two-three years younger. i already have names... they MUST have Elvish middle names, and i'm not telling what the 1st names are, though kathleen knows. i'll say the middle names: older-Amaurea; younger-Lindele
i was bored okay? so i was thinking

::Favorites::

01. Room In house: where the computer is
02. Type of music: soft and sorrowful. stuff ppl think 100 yr old ppl would like. Enya, LOTR, Josh Groban. yet i also listen to that weird stuff on the radio that ppl refer to as "music" i dunno. i have the weirdest taste in music.
03. Song: hmm... too many. just for my mood right now "Remember Me" Josh Groban & "Into the West"-Annie Lennox. most of Enya's songs are good too, and Britney Spears, i regret 2 say, "Everytime" is awesome
04. Memory: all those w/ my friends
05. Day of the Week: Sunday, weekend, but school the next day 2 look 4ward to
06. Color: white and blue... the white foam laces the blue waves of the Sea...
07. Flower: the single red rose. god i'm too romantic
08. Month: march
09. Season: spring, even though i have allergies

:: IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU ::

01. Cried: yea.. like twenty minutes ago
02. Bought Something: no, i don't spend my own money
03. Gotten Sick: not physically. emotionally, i usually am
04. Sang: yup.. Aragorn's Coronation.. Elvish
05. Said I Love You: nope
06. Wanted to Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: yes
07. Met Someone New: no
08. Moved On: no... i need to though
09. Talked To Someone: me? not talking?
10. Had A Serious Talk: yes
11. Missed Someone: yes too many
12. Hugged Someone: yea... too many
13. Kissed Someone: no
14. Fought With Your Parents: yes, too much
15. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: yes
16. Had a lot of sleep: nope
17. Wanted This Survey to Be Over: doesn't matter

:: THIS OR THAT ::

[Coke or Pepsi]: both
[Flowers or Candy]: both
[Scruff or Clean Shaven]: clean shaven...
:: WHO ::

[Makes you laugh the most?]: isaac & camron
[Makes you smile]: connie
[Gives you a *good* funny feeling when you see them]: camron
[Has a crush on u?]: i don't know
[Easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: guys

:: DO YOU EVER ::

[Sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: yes...
[Save AOL/AIM conversations]: only once and that was for a poem
[Wish you were living someone else's life]: no

:: HAVE YOU EVER ::

[Cried because of someone saying something to you]: yeah, today
[Fallen for your best friend]: guilty way too many times
[Been rejected]: yea
[Rejected someone]: it's the other way around
[Used someone]: no, that happens to me
[Been cheated on]: if i had a relationship, i would tell u
[Done something you regret]: too many times

:: WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON ::

[you talked to on the phone?]: talking to kathleen
[you Hugged]: roshi
[You instant messaged]: connie, right now
[You laughed with]: kathleen

:: DO YOU ::

[Color your hair]: hell no. natural ppl
[Ever get off the damn computer]: seldom
[Parlez Francais?]: i wish, one day i shall

:: HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU ::

[Smoke]: no
[Obsessive]: too much
[Could you live without the computer?]: hell no
[How many people are on your buddylist?]: 194
[What's your favorite food?]: um, other than fast & chinese, italian
[What's your favorite fruit?]: watermelon & strawberries
[Drink alcohol?]: hell no
[Like watching sunrises or sunset]: yes... they leave me with a bitter sense of fleeting time
[What hurts the most? Physical pain or Emotional pain?]: emotional, bcuz sticks and stones may break my bones, but they heal with time. some hurts go too deep, that have begun to take hold (frodo)
[Trust others way too easily] yes. 2 much.

:: FINAL QUESTIONS ::

[I want]: too much
[I wish]: i could have more time with my friends
[I love]: Middle-Earth, and my friends and my family
[I miss]: the best days i've ever had
[I fear]: failing, being forsaken, and snakes
[I hear]: my tears falling down
[I wonder]: if i ever will amount to anything and if i will ever keep in touch with my friends
[How do you know its love?]: when u catch yourself thinking of them when u shouldn't be. when you can't help but smiling when u see them in a crowd, and long to be near them

:: HAVE YOU EVER ::

1. Been in jail: no and i don't plan on being
2. Done drugs: see above
3. Run away from home: not yet
4. Hit a girl: phst.. what kind of a question is that? of course
5. Lied: yes. who has not?
6. Stolen anything: define steal. i may have accidently, yet don't remember
7. Broken a bone: i hope not
8. Cheated on a test: NO. ppl cheat off me
9. Gotten drunk: not yet
10. Been with two girls/guys at once: if i've been w/ one guy yet, i'll tell u
11. Been in the hospital: not as a patient, but visiting yes
12. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: yeah
13. Fell asleep in the shower/bath: no, there are other forms of gruesome death
14. Gone to church: once, i was 7
15. Never slept during a night: yup, watching LOTR
16. Ever been on a motorcycle or motorbike: nope
17. Been to a camp: nope
18. Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering: nope
19. Seen someone die: let's hope not
20. Gone a week w/o shaving: NO
21. Didn't wash your hair for a week: NO
22. Thought you were in love: if i knew what love was, i'd tell u
23. Streaked the streets: no
24. Screamed at someone for no reason: too much.. i regret it now, bcuz i may have hurt them
25. Said I love you and meant it: see # 22
26. Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: i don't remmeber. probably w/ kathleen

legovanan
sigh...

i have a feeling i'll have another poem written b4 the end of the day...

i almost started crying in history, bcuz the reality of it all FINALLY hit me. i mean, i always knew that we would have to part, and this week has all been just BLAH, but today, saying goodbyes to teachers, and sitting in that seat for the last time REALLY struck the point through. especially in English, bcuz Mandy was like, after poking me excessively, "LAINEY!!!!!!!! (in her very annoying voice as usual) it seems like yesterday that it was the first day of 8th grade" and i'm like, "yea i know... especially in this class, bcuz i sat here on the very 1st day, and now i'm back here again. except then, i had Camron behind me, instead of your annoying voice..." jkjk mandy!

and @ lunch, connie like SQUASHED my foot when i was signing Jenna's yrbook and was like, "come on elaine... one last ASSIST!!!!!! JUMP. REBOUND." well, unfortunately, i didn't give her an assist, though she and Lester had some AWESOME plays. i did make a bank shot from free throw area, and i had a bunch of shots, that i didn't make... :(
i got a bunch of rebounds and successfully sabotaged Ben's shots...
good game, very good game

used up an entire roll of film today. got pics of a bunch of ppl.

Booth & Kalmar played one last prank on me

u know, it finally hit me how much it meant for some1 just to say, in your yrbook, or out loud, "Your my friend..."
ppl like Roshi, Eddie, Reyes, i've known 4 like 8 yrs, and we've always been together, and sometimes i even got sick of them, and now, i only wish i had more time with them. shit, got tears welling now...

tomorrow, i shall truly know the meaning of this word, and how i hate it:
namarie

legovanan
well, i scribbled this poem... HIGHLY Tolkien.. i don't recommend it 2 anyone, but connie, well of the ppl i really know. but if u wanna take a look @ it, thatz awesome. mellon nin=friend. itz about a human who rues her mortality as she watches her Elven friend sail away into the West...

A Light Not Meant

Ai, mellon nin, must you take the ship?
Do the gulls instill more in you than I?
Answer the call, forsake those left
Left behind, on a cold, cruel world

The grey ship anchored in the harbor
The grey ship ready to take thee away
To a better land, one from which I am barred
The grey ship, my adversary, pillaging my heart

Must I suffer the slow decay of time?
Must I pay for ancestral mistakes?
Those that came before me set this fate
To dwindle, strength sapping, till shadow takes me
To dwell forevermore in eternal dusk

Would you leave me, mellon nin?
Take me with you, my heart grieves
Take me with you, to dwell here no longer
Take me with you, for comfort is not here
Take me with you, share the light of Valinor

I see the pain inside your heart
The grief mars your features
Yet grieve more when the gulls cry
The West you can shun no longer

Eyes as deep as time peer down
Farewell, no ship can bear me
Secondborn, o Illuvatar, mere mortal
Till the world is changed then

Grey ship leaves fair harbor
Sail for a much sweeter land
A far green country under a swift sunrise
Yet I do not, for these eyes
Eyes of a mortal not fated to see
The bliss of Valinor, the light of the trees
A light not meant for me…

holy crap, that was weird. i got somehting from someone else posted on my site. that was REALLy freaky... internet these days

legovanan
it's been kind of weird. I don't know if it's this whole promotion euphoria thing, and i don't htink it is, b cuz i've been feeling this way for quite a while:

i feel aloof, unattached to the world. it's like there's this veil between me and everything. when i do something, i know i'm doing it, but i don't really care anymore. i mean, everything happens, but i don't know why. i try to question it, but then i just confuse myself.
i feel like i'm floating, above the world, not apart of it..

andy, help me

legovanan
ahh!!! graduation depression is taking over my life!!!!

i am out of room in my yrbook! i gotta add a bunch of pgs bcuz there's sooo many ppl i haven't gotten yet! ahhh!!!

i nearly cried writing Connie's... i think she got mad @ me bcuz i took so long!!! yea well, i still have more 2 write, but i think she would've killed me. but then again, there's that poem & the short story i wrote 4 her... i'm sry that u died in it con! but it was for story purposes only!!

damn i'm gonna miss these people. right now i'm glad i still have Camron, though he can be an @$$.

Vorinwe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Isilme is going to cry!!!!!!
mellon nin, umin merne quente namarie!!!!1 vorinwe!!!

translation:
my friend, i do not wish to say farewell!! connie!!!!

grrr this is evil!!! ISAAC!!!!1

legovanan
this guy just came to the door advertising insect control... but he found out a bunch of info that kinda freaks me out... hopefully nothing happens. like he knows that my dad doesn't come home until late, and that i'm home alone. kinda freaks me out.

signing yearbooks and stuff.. rather depressing. decided on promotion songs:
processional:
"At the Beginning"
recessional:
Graduation (Friends Forever)-Vitamin C

legovanan
found this quote:
"Anyone perfect must be lying. Anything easy has its cost. Anyone plain can be lovely. Anyone loved can be lost."

first line: Sam
second line: too many things... friendship, though some are intensely hard, like camron. essays also, for anyone in Kalmar.
third: i wish...
fourth: i'm not going to say.

something vince said the other day got me thinking... whitney, i know, it's a shock! camron mystifies me. i mean, if he hates me as much as he sometimes acts (which is when we're both PMSing) then why has he stuck around for so long?
we can hate each other one day, and then be great friends the next...
there's so much i want to say to him, or even about him, but i don't dare.

five days left of school!!!!!!

connie, have u finished that damn poem yet? if i have one thing on u, thatz efficiency!

legovanan
Disneyland was fun yesterday, though exhausting, and me and andres were wishing Leadership were there! yea con, i ACTUALLY missed u!!
my group:
Me
Andres
Kenny T
Alex C.
Vivian
Vince
Wesley

it was sooo fun! me and the guys were having spitball wars. 1st time i ever did something like that. bad influence these guys are.. wesley got me sooo good! he thought he was gonna blow a hole in my neck. i got KT a couple times and Andres kept getting spitballs stuck in his hair, which was really funny

at lunch, we couldn't all fit @ a table, so me and andres sat @ a separate one, and Alex was like, "let's take a picture of them and show it 2 AShley!" and andres is like, "wait, hold on!" he takes a spoon, he picks um, i think itwas like chili or something, and he pretends he's like feeding me.. and then @ night, we took another 1 of us.. i can't wait 2 c Ashley's reaction. stupid Vince. he's like, "hey, show it to camron too! he'll be even more jealous!" i smacked him with my coke bottle... and then when we were going on Splash Mountain, Alex is like, "hey, put Elaine in the front. she'll get soaked. and plus, she's the only one wearing white." and vince is like, "Wouldn't Camron love to see that?" i was like, "SHUT UP" and then smacked him again. whitney, u should be proud of me. but vince is pretty cool, and i kinda feel bad 4 him @ times.

Wesley was HOMICIDAL on Autopeia. he was behind me both times and he was trying 2 kill me!

u know how i have a phobia 4 snakes, i 4got the official name, but yesterday, i SERIOUSLY, and i mean, SERIOUSLY SPAZZED or FREAKED out. i think wes, alex, and kenny were like scared. Kenny's like, "your sooo stupid. what? gonna have a heart attack?" in Indiana Jones, in the part w/ the snake, me, alex, and vivian were sitting 2gether, and we were all holding hands, bcuz we were all kinda freaked, and i like killed Alex's hand and like seriously freaked out. alex thought i was gonna have a seizure. then, in Honey, I Shrunk the Audience!, the 3D thing. the part where the snake goes all 3D and is gonna bite ur head off. i like spazzed out. kenny thought i was gonna blow. wes said he had permanent ear damage.

anyway, if i think of other stuff, i'll keep blabbing.
i'm gonna ramble about a racial issue later... too tired right now.

legovanan
movies to see:
HP 3!
Troy (hey, i need 2 c Eric Bana as Hector again. not 4 Eric Bana, for HECTOR, and no, not orlando bloom)

Books to read:
TOLKIEN!!!
Angels & Demons
more Greek stuff

legovanan
omg!! lunch 2day was sooooooo much fun!! we're up 3-2, and connie had a gazillion assists!!! well, more like 10. Siemaf kept shooting!! and Kush had some awesome threes! i had one assist-2 Siemaf, and it was awesome! i alwayz had a semi-layup, and... I USED THE BACKBOARD!!!!!
and then, of course, there's the highlight of the game, and my specialty:
HEY BEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

@ one point, he got so pissed, he was like, "WHAT?!"

itz sooo funny

so far, songs we have on the list 4 promotion:
Processional:
"I will Remeber You"-Sarah McGlaughlin, or something...
"Pilgrim"-Enya(!!!!!!!)
"Friends Forever"-Vitamin C
"A New Day"-Celine Dion

Recessional:
"All Star"-Smash Mouth
"At the Beginning"-Donna Lewis & Richard Marx

so far, i want "At the Beginning" 4 recessional, and i like all 4 for processional, i don't know if she wanted me 2 add "Remember" 2 the list...

legovanan
i just stumbled upon this quote.. i love it! connie, shield ur eyes, u'll be disgusted:

"If love were a choice, who would ever choose such exquisite pain?" - Anna and the King

lunch is so fun. i love screaming, "HEY BEN!!!!" and itz funny, it works every time, and i can prove that itz effective bcuz when i'm not on the court, Ben makes it!

and i got all these quotes about the eyes.. well, i found them like a year ago, and i copied them down somehwere, and today, when i was rummaging, i found them. this is kinda like a poem:
"Thine eyes are springs, in whose serene
And silent waters heaven is seen.
Their lashes are the herbs that look
On their young figures in the brook." (Bryant)

hey, it rhymes!
this one is sad yet true:
"If eyes don't see, heart doesn't break"-Cervantes
and one that goes along w/ that:
"What the eyes view not, the heart craves not, as well as rues not."-William Penn

i'll type more later, i g2g camron's house. hopefully our RG will work!!!

legovanan
can we ever understand ourselves?