legovanan
This lyric is:
Happy is what happens when all your dreams come true!

I disagree.

Though having your dreams come true and all that is nice, I think happiness is more easily achieved than that. Or harder, depending on who you are.

Happiness is...
1. Sitting on the bus, surrounded by friends (who gang up on you in cards *cry*), and knowing that these people love you for who you are.

2. Spending a Sunday afternoon wandering around, though aimlessly, you don't mind. It's not necessarily the destination, but the company in the journey. Like.. my mom says I'm lazy because I don't want to walk ALL THE WAY from the gas station at costco to the actual store. I didn't mind walking through half of London at 8 PM. Absorbed in conversation (including teaching Olivia to not go YEE-HAW for ni-hao), and gazing at the Thames...

o GREAT now i'm nostalgic!!

legovanan

I hurt myself badly today! Isn't that fun?

I have never done a backflip in my entire life.

Until today.

we were during pass and pivot, something no one has ever fallen before. I somehow did. I felt my knee scrap the ground hardly, then my head made contact, and then my hands (that were trying to break my fall) had the hardest impact they have ever felt in my life.

So now... both my palms are extremely cut up; two parts on my left knee are bleeding profusely. I get those washed and bandaged, and guess what--the wrist starts hurting!!! Iced that; feels better now..

Had fun yesterday!!
Went to Birch St in downtown Brea and watched Corpse Bride with Matthew and Kathleen. It was a cute movie. As Matthew said, "A chick flick in disguise." It was soooooo sweet in the end!! Johnny Depp with a very well-to-do London accent is funny hehe. The maggots were AWESOME, as well as the French head!
Then we wandered around Birch St, dragged Matthew into girl stores, including Bath and Body Works, where we tested everything! My left arm smelled like acacia, and my right arm smelled like raspberry mist or wahtever it's called. I like that raspberry smell, though I hate raspberries! Eheheheh sprayed Matthew with lavender! It was AWESOME!

Took this quiz; Got off Bila, actually pretty accurate in most places

Elaine took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of exp..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

legovanan
i LOVE ELSA!!!!! *hugs elsa*

I GOT A PRESENT! I GOT A PRESENT!

From Elsa:
1. the "Wicked" CD! it's AWESOME!!! I love all the songs but one, because it's scary, but my favorites right now are, in this order:
No Good Deed
Defying Gravity
As Long as You're Mine
I'm Not that Girl
2. LIVERPOOL SOCKS!!!!!!!! they are AWESOME!!!
3. a cartoon strip making fun of the British (hehe)
4. a THISTLE!!!!!!!!! *hums the tune of a Gift of a Thistle*

and now, i must post the lyrics of this song!
Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl.

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl:

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl...

i love that one line! hehe i'll probably post the lyrics to "Defying Gravity" later. THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH ELSA!!!!!!! i'll burn this for you andy!

legovanan

Got this off Elsa.

BOLD is what's TRUE for me.

01. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year. [almost 5 months]
02. I still watch cartoons. [GAH i refuse.. COUGH MATTHEW COUGH]
03. I've never seen The O.C. (amazing.. since i live about 6 minutes away from the county line, and go there for school every day!)
04. I love almost all music. (um... nothing too loud)
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.
08. But mostly to read the blackboard and drive.
09. I want more piercings.
10. But I can't ever get any more.
11. I love to watch the rain. (Yes I do.. it inspires good poetry, pacifies me, makes me want to sing while sitting in a window seat, cry, think of England, and--it gets me out of basketball practice!)
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk. (um.. i'm not exactly sure. there's only one person who i would love to do that with. and NO, it's not in a perverted or physical way!!! we have had/could have some very very good conversations)
13. I didnt believe in true love when i was younger. (hehehee.. i wasn't one of the girls who loved disney love stories. i was a girl who dreamt them up on my own)
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason. (I have a reason. You just wouldn't understand.)
16. I cry about stupid things. (Again. You might think it was stupid. As Elphaba said in Wicked, "Wishing only wounds the heart." and NO, it has nothing to do with steven gerrard. i'm not THAT pathetic.)
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap. (um.. who likes it? but i still get walked over a lot)
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like. (i'm sure i WOULD dislike it if people told me what to like, but i don't think anyone's been foolish enough to try. as for who i am, sometimes they're right)
19. I love music.
20. I am not sure if I believe in God. But I think I believe in a higher power.
21. I often feel alone. (this is why i have my stories)
22. I'm sometimes a loud person. (SOMETIMES?)
23. A boy shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes. (that's what writing is for)
25. I hate it when people criticize me for what I like. (actually.. i hate it when they criticize for no logical reason. as you all know, i love a good argument)
26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc. (unfortunately.. weell i crack my knuckles, and by 3rd period, i need to crack my back)
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I'm a weird person. (yup i love it)
29. I consider myself pretty unique. (i AM the center of the universe, the one and only!!)
30. My eyes are brown. (dark)
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood. (actually i can always depend on music to make me nostalgic and pensive.. well certain music. that's how my playlists are sorted)
32. I am a disappointment to myself. (i can be)
33. I love sleeping. (i don't mind sleep, but i'd rather be.. reading)
34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla. (i love vanilla ice cream, but i can't stand the smell of it)
35. I have a few close friends. (well more than a few)
36. Okay, I have like 2 friends.
37. I need to lose weight. (this is 21st century america.. everyone needs to lose weight)
38. I like popcorn. (it's okay. i'll eat it, but don't seek it out)
39. I love watching tv [If it's a NASCAR race, hell yes. In other situations, nope.]
40. I like malls. [Temecula mall...Orange County mall...Ok, hell yeah I like malls.]
41. I like cold weather better than hot. [Gimme wind and rain ANY day!]
42. I really dig Depeche Mode. (Quien?!)
43. I love Winter. (this is a recent addition.)
44. I'm addicted to AIM.
45. I have trouble trusting people. (HAH. instead of laughing in affirmation, i laugh at the folly. i trust too easily)
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me." (you label me.. i don't care)
47. I love my family.
48. I loathe hot weather. (not loathe, but don't exactly jump for joy)
50. I hate shaving my legs. (OMG I HATE IT. why is body hair a symbol of masculinity all of a sudden?!)
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine. (didn't i just answer something like this?)
52. I like to listen to music everyday.
53. I love white tigers. (um.. to admire from a safe, far away distance, if you please)
54. I love dancing. (when no one's watching)
55. I don't always like the way I look. (i don't think about it much though)
57. I'm a daydreamer. (HAHAHA that's my defining aspect)
58. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special. (go elsa!!!)
59. I like to be with my boyfriend (stupid question)
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my friends.
62. I'm allergic to milk.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry. (not people; not everyone is that honored)
64. I hate people who try to be what they're not.
65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school
66. I love all candy, well, most. (CANDY?!?! WHERE?!)
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy. (well.. i forget it soon, and when i'm being a drama queen, i'm usually not really hurt)
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty. (well i might as well be like everyone else and say yes)
69. I wear pants a lot. (NO I wear kilts on a daily basis)
70. I am often bored.
71. I like to say what's on my mind. (hehe unfortunately)
72. I hate blue jeans (i love them!!!)
73. I'm online a lot. (hehee)
74. I have 2 goldfish.
75. I am for the most part happy with myself. (i suppose so)
76. I need to work out more. (yea yea yea whatever)
77. I like being alone at certain times. (yes)
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes. (um... not really)
79. I wish I could spend more time with the ones I love. (depends on who we're talking about)
80. I hate shallow people. (o god.. i'm not starting)
81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic.
82. I ponder life way too much. (never!!! it's never enough!)
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me. (whatever...)
84. I wish my brother didn't die. (no brother.. on my own, pretending he's beside me)
85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants. (OMFG IN THE LOCKER ROOM TODAY!! *shields eyes from blindingness*
86. I need to be showed I'm loved. (all part of my overwhelming insecurity that i mask extremely well)
87. I wish I was better. (o GOD don't get me started. perfection at all costs! Go us Feanaro!)
88. I hate discrimination. (if i said no to this, what would happen? no don't wry, i'm not part of the KKK or anything; i was just wondering. some of these questions, you couldn't answer in one way)
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing. (what?? peanuts? no idea where that came from)
90. I have a cute car. (yes.. it's parked outside, next to my faithful steed Beor)
91. I love glitter. (no thank you)
92. I sometimes wish I was more social. (nope)
93. I love my close friends. (of course)
94. I love to have fun. (hehe of course.)
95. I get amused easily. (i pretend to be amused; it's more exciting that way)
96. I'm a lazy ass. (of course not)
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends. (i'm CRAZY when i'm with the people i'm comfortable around)
98. I love to be me. (Hell yes, though there are a few times when envy darkens my heart)
99. I like wearing hoodies. (I WANT A CLOAK!!!!!!!!!!!)
100. I want people to want me, more and more everyday. (Um... platonically)

it's been a good 3 days

legovanan
I GET A DIME!!!!!

I GET A DIME!!!!!

I GET A DIME!!!!!

Never before has a dime meant so much!!!!

Wait... going along with andy's anti-climatic ness, a dime HAS meant more to me once... A very special, inside thing that I shall not share with anyone, and the person I shared that with will never say anything because he will deny it.

Andy--why couldn't it be a NICKEL, or even better, a golden Sacagawea coin?!?!?

I GET A DIME!!!!!!!

I GET A DIME!!!!!!!

ANDY WON A DOLLAR!!!! IN THE LOTTERY!!! THIS MEANS HE'LL NEVER WIN ANYTHING EVER AGAIN IN HIS LIFE IN THE LOTTERY!!!

And it was previously arranged that I get 10% of the winnings! 10 cents is a lot different than 3.3 million Andy!!

legovanan
This post, is dedicated to...

ANDY!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! Well, one day late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I'm glad you liked your present, and mine is definitely better than Kathleen's, RIGHT?

So... a historic moment in our lives.
Yesterday, on Andy's 18th birthday, we got off the bus, and walked to...

STATER BROTHERS

I know. CRAZY and WILD place to celebrate a birthday right? Let's dance with the carrots! aHahahah I can actually see Pippin and Merry doing that. Hahahahah I can just see the Gaffer and Farmer Maggot swinging shovels at them for messing with their garden and field, respectively.
ANYWAY, back to Andy.
What were we doing at the exotic and mysterious realm of Stater Brothers (we being Kathleen, me and Andy), we were accompanying Andy in his epic quest of...
BUYING A LOTTERY TICKET.
*plays the Bridge of Khazad-Dum music*
I was taking pictures and gurgitating valuable advice tehehe, while Kathleen was just this useless witness. Who needs her? Hehehehe. THE MACHINE WOULDN'T WORK. So we had to go to the clerk, and I took this picture of him with the clerk. For a visual interpretation of this historic moment, visit Andy's blog, the first one under "Reds" to the left. I like my rant about it better though!
As Andy would say, his life is so anti-climatic. I'm like over dramatizing everything, and I'm about to take the picture, "Andy! SMILE!!! You're about to buy a lottery ticket for the FIRST TIME!" and he's pushing the ticket thing into the slot, and I snap the picture, and then-- the machine doesn't work. *sigh* O well.. We got the picture! hehehehe

Wow.. that's the first time I've seen someone in my generation buy a lottery ticket. I feel childhood fleeting by... AHHHHHHH!! I CAN GET MY PERMIT THIS WEEKEND. OMG. OMG. AHHHHH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY!! I was going to rant about innocence/childhood/maturity/adulthood/responsiblity, but the piano calls!

legovanan
It's been a pretty good weekend.

But.. tomorrow is

MONDAY

How I have come to loathe it. I never thought I'd say that!!!

So on Saturday, went to Sana's party. was awesome!!!! Got to see everyone again, especially.. the CONNIE!!!!!!!!!!! or more appropriately: conie, or more recently: cone

hehehe
played basketball with her, went into the jumper, ate lots of sweets i shouldn't have, played MURDER MURDER YOU'RE THE MURDERER!!!!!! BACKSTABBING CONNIE!!!!! she ALWAYS killed me!!!! And I never got to murder her, because EVERYONE KEPT STARING AT ME AND ELIMINATING ME! "IT'S ELAINE!!!" and it's NEVER Elaine!!! When it WAS me, I couldn't murder Connie because then everyone would know!! NOT COOL! Saw Alex, Nicole, Sana, Shilpa, etc. Awesome!!

legovanan
IT'S ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been swamped, and I DIED yesterday, so that's why I haven't been posting!!!

IT's ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We took our first AP Euro test, and I got a 96. Eh... I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I MISSED. I WANTED AN 100--DAMN IT

WHEE!!! CONNIE IS MY LOVE!!!!!!!! She's making me a picture!!! The fellowship, with Faramir instead of Boromir, hehehehe, in pencil sketches!!! WHEE! I think I've killed her, being EXTREMELY picky about pictures, and not finding any of the Frodo pictures adequate. None of them are good enough! I'M SORRY. Which leads me to this... absolutely gorgeous and I can't find the correct adjective to describe it... luminescent picture.



I want to make it bigger and use it for the basis of a layout.. It's so... beautiful.

legovanan

Art thou not Romeo, and a Montague?

Neither, fair maid, if either thee dislike.


I love it. I can't help it! I love Romeo!!

legovanan
Why is it that every time I'm not feeling happy, I think of England??

Why is it that every time something goes wrong, I think of England?

Why is it that every time I want to be more than just a high school student at Troy, or be in some grand adventure, I think of both Middle-Earth and England?

AHHHHHHHHH

I think it's become this dreamland to me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

legovanan
it's SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!! and guess what I'm doing--AP Euro hw!! HOW FUN. QUE CHEVERE.

wel i had a big asian party last night at alex's house. it was in the canyon, which is why i didn't have reception matthew. kathleen was there, along with alex, philip, angeline, and emily. GOOD FOOD. LOTS OF GOOD FOOD. We played basketball and I beat Kathleen and Alex at horse. Kathleen got out early, and then I had HORS, while Alex had H. But then I made 4 free throws in a row, and he couldn't make his so.. I WON!!!!!!! MUAHAHAH! Fear the power of the free throws! Alright that was stupid.

Then I looked through the Ayala yearbook. I must admit--mixed feelings. I saw the place my picture would have been, where it was for 2 years of junior high--between Kenneth Taylor and Kush Thapar. I saw the basketball team and the different clubs and what I would have been in if I were there. I miss everyone, but I don't regret going to Troy; even if people are **************** (can't think of a word so uh... you fill in the blank)
I don't know.. I don't want to think about it.

I'm working on a new layout. Don't start celebrating Matthew--I'm saving this one! I want to find another picture.. I want to use the one picture on my screensaver of Xabi, Riise, and Stevie. But I think I'm going to take a more... Tolkien-esque or nature-scene approach at the moment.

legovanan
OMG you should ALL be proud of me--especially you Connie!!!

I RAN half a mile without STOPPING, at ALL today!!!! WHEE!
but then.. i cut both my heels in those stupid shoes. Maybe it was the incentive that if I finish that run, I wouldn't have to wear those stupid shoes any more. It's disgusting how my sock and the back of my shoe were all bloody.

So much freakin hw.

legovanan
I don't care what people think of me.
I don't care.
I don't care at all.

They can go screw themselves over if they don't like me and what I am.

Keep telling yourself that Elaine.

legovanan
So.. the first week of school is officially over.

Hmm... I'm of mixed feelings
First thing's first, my schedule

0 AP Comp Sci (Reid)
1 Trig/Pre-Calc H (Roach)
2 Spanish 2 (Johnson)
3 English 2 H (Madrid)
4 IB Chemistry (Regli)
5 AP Euro (Liem)
6 Basketball

As a general statement, I hate the people in my classes. They're all the type of "cool" Asians who think they're so awesome and black and pimp and popular when they're really nerdy little twits. They think they're soooooooo funny.. argh
AP Comp Sci:
It's FREEZING IN THERE!!!! LITERALLY. The junior I sit next to is extremely creepy, but Andrew Murase and Diana fighting behind me is hilarious. I don't like Karel. I don't care about Karel. I don't understand Karel. NO ONE CARES!!! Matthew pities me for having Reid, but so far he's not TOO bad. Other than the fact that his subject is completely stupid and uninteresting.

Trig/Pre-Calc H:
Um... I'd rather have Koci. Much rather. Surprisingly enough, but I actually LIKE Koci. Roach is.. odd. She's nice and all, but for one I can't see a thing in her class, and two, she's REALLY REALLY REALLY picky. And there's this extremely annoying, loud freshman in my class. I have Eager in my class though!!! Brain rust!!!!

Spanish 2:
Well everyone pities me for having Johnson two years in a row, but I actually don't mind much, other than the fact that I don't know anyone in the class. Well I know people like Bobby, but I'm not really friends/close with anyone, which really sucks. I actually find it quite to my advantage that I have Johnson, because I don't need to accustom myself to her method of teaching. And her mood swings.

English 2 H:
This would have been my favorite class of the day. If I had it 2nd period, with Kristina, Celia, Yogin (the triumvirate of last year), and Matthew, amongst other people. Instead, I have it with people like Viraj, Lindsey, Jesse, Jackie, etc. Vicky and Gleb are in the class, which is nice, but still.. I wanted either Mrs. Madrid or Ms. Harper, so I got my wish.

IB Chem:
Now this class, is even more freezing than AP Comp Sci. That class is warm, but I sit next to the door at 7 AM, so it's cold. Chemistry is just COLD. What IS it with the new building?!?!!? Eh.. I'm on the verge of falling asleep in this class, but Mrs. Regli is really nice.

AP Euro:
WHEE!!!! Well I sit near Brent and Gleb, so that's awesome, even if Matthew is on the opposite side of the room. It's sooooooo FASCINATING!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T STOP READING!!!!!!

Basketball:
We start practice on Tuesday. (NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!) Komaki said we have two things this year:
running
dribbling

AHHHH!!!!!! THE TWO THINGS I SUCK MOST AT!!! I suck at basketball in the first place, but the TWO THINGS I HATE THE MOST!!!! AHHHHHHH! and it's like 100 degrees outside! IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!!